SHUBIDULALAAAA.

there's a move

2009-11-11T08:03:00.002+08:00

shalalalaa

2009-09-16T20:36:00.002+08:00

work has been tiring this few days. but so far i survive.. haha.. hate the coughings n irritating itch in the throat but what to do... just bear with it for a few more months. i noe i havent been updating for q some time. and blogger is finally fine! haha! just as i thought of abandoning this blog.

raye is coming up in a few days. im back to fasting mode. :)
and im thankful for the fact that im no longer in depression. only that im in isolation mode at home. oh, who cares. ok. erm.. raya this year doesn't feel like raya. maybe on the day itself then i will feel it. lol. can't wait can't wait for end of the week. a week plus to closer to a long break!

gosh! i really really wanna go on a vacation. only if i have that liberty. dammit!

happy happy

2009-09-01T05:18:00.001+08:00

i have been rather busy lately. a type of busy-ness which i never wanna ask for. in fact, i hate it alot. not being picky, but it is just not the right thing. im really trying my best to hold on and not complain bt i just duno until when i can hold on. sigh.

anihoos, while im busy with other things, i did have some time to spend with others, like dear, cousins and friends! last last sunday was birthday, dint get to spend it with dear bt he did drop by to give me 'something'. it was really cute and sweet of him. too sweet that i have soo many sweets amidst the roses and box. lol. on that day, i actually cut two cakes bcoz there was iftar at my house with my little cousins. it was q boring at first coz its fasting month but it went on well i suppose. nvr did i expect my birthday to fall on ramadhan.

and last saturday, met nyjc frens. really miss those days when we could spend time freely tgt at school playing floorball and study tgt, dance tgt and stuff. many couldn't turn up but having the seven of the 8 of them is haengbok. amirali's grill is it? i think ah.. cozy place. love it that we have a room to ourselves. they gave me a surprise. a belated birthday surprise.lol. my first choc cake aft soo long. hehe.. reminds me of j1 incident. elvis and 0732. so yaa.. ate until we were so full and walked back with dina and met dear, who sent me home. thank u dear and also, my dear frens. really look forward to another meet up with them. :)

i miss spending time with dear. but thankfully, i had the chance to yesterday. i got home all tired and slept like a log. haha. and now, i wanna take a nap b4 gg off to work. i pray hard tt today will be fine. :S

1st day of ramadhan

2009-08-22T22:19:00.001+08:00

spent my day mostly doing cards n more cards. cards are now alr uploaded, and ready for sale. :) hopefully, there are buyers. im pretty satisfied with today's creation. it's better than all the others i did before. some cards for teachers' day and others are cards suitable for any occasions. :)

hmm.. im really feeling very frustrated now. coz of the smell from my dad's cigarette. damn, why is it sooo smelly?? and choking?? i feel like suffocating. past few days i have been unwell. with my stomach problem getting wilder and wilder. and then on fri i got flu. oh thanx la. and now, my nose feels horrible and horribler! (no such word kay, i noe!)

first day of ramadhan. kinda funny day i must say. haha.. went to singpost in the afternoon with nana. it feels so warm. hehe.. and break fast and all the jokes with ayah n all. haha.. its funny la the way we crave for food n drinks when its not even zohor yet! but i get my BANDUNG! hehehe.. not same laa with the one at coffee shop. haiyaa.. my mum kinda feel "rimas" with me doing so many cards. she's funny laa.. haha.. and yes, its my first saturday spent at home aft sooo long! im glad for that. and now, due to sitting down too long making cards, my body is all achy and stuff. washing the dishes is kinda fun too. other then i 'sompek' 2 plates, the bubbles n tango drink made us laugh also. haha.. ok..

im sleepy. adios.

people

2009-08-19T23:30:00.001+08:00

people's mind is really hard to understand. especially so when they have a twisted confused mind.

what the fcuk.

2009-08-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

when u noe nuts means u noe nuts. if its really something which is redundant, u dun nid to ask. gosh. MYOB ppl. shuddup when u can. n i relly cant stand the father n d daughter. hmm. bad day. hate u la. CB.

at first i thot, tgif. bt now its all just as bad. im just gonna enjoy tomr n not care abt the others.

be prepared for shits to happen

2009-08-14T06:37:00.000+08:00

a lil update b4 i go off to work. for the past 3 days, i have learnt alot at work. and i hope today will be a much better day than yesterday! and i hope, the call q will be lesser.

i was having a bad day yesterday and i was really thankful that dear wasnt working and met me aft work. he really made my day. aft walking ard in causeway pt, went to lot 1. dine at pizza hut. eat so much till so full! hehe.. laughing and joking around with him was nice. it makes me forget abt work. i sdnly thot that i really3 miss waking up late n most of all i really miss spending time with him alot.

i cant wait for working days to be over and have a a short break. back to ydae, dear also found his wallet alr. alhamdulillah. and we walk around at the bazaar and in the shopping mall to get himself a new wallet and myself, a few more blouses. and it was all on dear. hehe. thank u sweetheart!

left wrist hurts.

2009-08-12T20:49:00.001+08:00

money. everyday dealing with that issue. gonna gt sick of it. and a qn here. what's the impact on someone who wasn't been having a good financial status and suddenly get rich? hmmm..

recently i hadnt been feeling that well. every morning got sickness. and every now and then i feel achy and lethargic. i hope it will get better. and ulcers! bloody damn hate it!! nida do reflection for today's work. my goodness, i feel like the headset is still on my damn ear!! and my head is spinning right now!

i miss boyfriend alot! i wish i can spend more time with him during the weekend at least. i wanna go shopping.. the jacket is still flying in my mind.. haha.. and i cant wait to wear my new heels. when will that be?? hmmmmm...

k, a lil nap shud help my head rest for a lil bit before starting on my reflection and revising. god, it feels like schooling!! i wish i am schooling and learning smtg interesting that will benefit me alot. gosh!! cant wait for school!!

a brand new start!

2009-08-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

after kenduri, i went for a short jog around the park near my house. at the same time, met dear to return his amplet to him. initially i had an incomplete niform from him and due to some probs he ran into, had to head down to a police post in the morning and couldn't get the amplets for me. so he rushed over and send it to me at the flyers. im sorry for the trouble, i noe he was pissed coz i forever gave him the wrong directions. but at the end of the day, i wore ur uniform prudly with ur name tag on! hehe.. so yeah, coz my ankles and knees were weak, i oni manage to run 5 rounds. and did some exercise at the exercise corner. haha..

while i was jogging, at a spot, at every round, i heard some pakciks talking abt the liverpool singapore match. haha! hello, pakcik! go play soccer laa!! talk abt the long-ago match for waht??? hehehe..

i tink i had enuff bullshit from my family. y'dae i received so much unwanted rants although i wasn't wrong at wrong. and seriously i noe nuts abt whats happening. and i was angry and then i was on the sympathy end n i got confused. and i feel like a hypocrite. but i noe tt i made my point clear on both sides. i dint take sides. n i noe what i was talking as a sister. so yes. and ppl, stop making remarks behind my f-ing back. i cant stand it. if ur not happy, make ur bullshit known in front of me. and for goodness sake, its really crap. u cant accept my comment then fine. i'll shut up. i was just being honest. what the heck.

i feel like making cards today. but i noe, i have tonnes of reading to do. reading on national projects. since work starts tomr. im kinda excited but worried too. hahak.. and i hope i wont over-dress on the first day...

the day the flag raise up high

2009-08-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

the weather forecast stated that it will rain yesterday. but there wasn't any bit of rain but the sun was up high. it was pretty hot yesterday. national day has come to an end and no more saturdays at the floating platform. yesterday was fun. it was the last and we gave our best.

normally i will wear the thai express shirt but yesterday, i wore my dear's ica uniform!! thank god he got a smaller pants and extra uniform and all the stuff and he happily lend it to me.. wow! i feels o proud wearing his uniform!! staff sergeant some more! hehehe.. nice nice nice.. so many say wah police police! not police la! ica la!! haha!

okok, have to stop here for now coz i needa go get ready. going out in a while! got kenduri at tampines. oh wells. so lazy to go.. so not my thing..

love him!

2009-08-08T21:57:00.001+08:00

im feeling kinda disgusted now. wtf.

fully occupied the whole week. kinda feeling tired almost everyday. thur and fri spent the day at tanjong pagar cpf building for training. endd the day on thurs with popeye meal. god, ate with dear till our stomach almost blast! thankfully, i had a hungry stomach and so could finish my meal. and on friday, went to swensen's at parkway parade with the 5 ppl from the house. had to wait so freaking long for them at tkc. and batt flat as i was smsing dear.

couldn't decide wad to eat. and i actually bought both! sirloin steak n bolognaise spaghetti. haha.. but i share both with them ok.. yummy yummy.. no wonder growing fatter la.. eat soo much! haha..

today, unwillingly went to norris rd for thosai and chapatti. and then met dear and did some shopping! :) bought a pair of heels, pants and blouse and a top. ok, its for work. i had fun shopping with him coz he like know everything.. and he picked everything for me! and dun forget about the other P word. hehe.. thank you so much dear!! xoxo.. thank u so much too for making my day and making me happy aft all the shits i got in the morning.. :)

and.. he lend me his uniform for tomr! how exciting! can't wait for tmr! gonna meet up with friends!! :)

happy or fat?

2009-08-06T20:17:00.001+08:00

i feel like im getting fatter. its like my pinggang is "off-shape" already. needa do smtg about it! but now no more time, coz im working like everyday! i was told that i put on weight coz im happy? is that true?? if liddat, dun be happy la.. hehehehe.. risky to the body size. hehe.. what's with that analogy. keep fit, sha! no more PE for u, do something for urself!! pimples and fats are the most impt things to get rid of. :)

had a really shitty morning today. went out pretty early to get to tanjong pagar for training early. but hell, the mrt got all this technical shit going on and i was late! i tot i will be super late but thank god, i was like only 20mins late. but im still late laa.. kancong spider skejap.. hahahaha! jurong east is where all the trouble begins. wanna cab but no cab.. wanna take bus, but dunno wad bus, so queue for the train. its like a massive army of ants on the platform pushing and all to get into the train. i tell u, the platform is so so bloody pack. and the sun is right in our face and i was sweating like a pig. really hate taking the train during peak hours. this is wen all the butt grace occurs and everyone gets annoyed. i was in a bad mood coz its not a start which i was looking forward to. poor zurin who was smsing me, got scolded. haha! soo much for my patience! moral of story: tomr go out earlier and take the train to marina instead! hah! thank god im not deployed at tanjong pagar. or else.. i will die!!

its been awhile since i wake up early, so i shall hae an early night. :) what to wear tomr?? gosh, i just have a love-hate relationship with office wear!

pure laziness is a killer!

2009-08-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

today's my lazy day. i just dun feel like doing antg although i have so many things in mind. and den, now.. i realise i have to do something important (this is the thing which i realli didnt think of from just now); to do the lesson plan for tomr's last lesson! gosh, 4 to 7 class. i have so much time to cover so much. but i haven't prepared a single thing! and im feeling kinda giddy now and i think SLEEP is the best thing to do now. haha! i shall make some effort soon. as for my room, i mean, shelf, wait long long la.. i dun even noe when will be the next free time i will have. haiyer..

i don't care eh eh eh eh eh...

2009-07-30T19:01:00.001+08:00

kay, blogger was fine just now. but not anymore. so no photos again for this entry. and nana! u damn u! use my lappy nvr keep proply huh.. ish ish ishh.. and i just got back from lot 1, and bought some stuff and had lunner with dear. hehe.. hehe.. kayy,here's a quick fine update..

i didnt go for my nanyang class on tuesday, aft my job interview.. i chose to go for a kenduri that night. anw i was sullen, i even made my boyf mad just coz i was upset over seeing some ppl.. im sorry.. but sometimes, my impression of ppl can make me go wth. ohkay, enuff of dat stupidity of mine. my interview went ohkay. not well done. but alhamdulillah i got the job! :) have one week to get my wardrobe issue settled.

on wednesday, which was yesterday, went down to the agency to sign my contract and so i didnt go for st marg's class. and it really surprises that dina too didn't go! hahaha! aft which, met jamaliah and farhan at tanjong pagar mrt and listened to them talk about some life and business thingy. which makes me think of wad's the goal in my life? have u guys tot of that? wad do u wanna achieve at the end of ur education path and in u golden years.. hmmmmm.. simply put, i wanna have a happy and easy life. i have to admit though in this place, its not easy to lead a "senang-lenang" life. afterwhich, headed down to tampines with dear, who picked me up aft work and had our lunch. went to various handphone outlets and went to the samsung shop to get new handphones! haha! it's my 1st most expensive phone. i was kinda worried about receiving it as a gift. but who don't like getting gifts, especially expensie ones from the loved ones.. right right??? and it's a sincere gift. not like some people who give stuff but kept saying it over and over.. like as if they are unwilling to give it. hak! and after which, accompanied him to sakura, downtown to meet up with his friends for dinner. i felt quite awkward but thankfully, most of them are makciks so it was ohkieee.. :)

ohkiee. that's abt it i guess. hehe.. hmm.. i just dun understand what's with some of the snsd girl trying to look like some sophisticated women.. yoona is still the best and also, maknae, of course.. :)

LOVE LIVERPOOL!!

2009-07-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

had a really awesome day at national stadium watching the match LIVE!!! worth the money and time! had a close up look at the players! how awesomely gorgeous!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! and it's a great game of 5-0!!! it's like my first match of soccer and how unbelievable it is that the team is right before my eyes!!! ok, will update more next time. im kinda tired. hehe.. ;)

never walk alone..

dun treat money like dirt

2009-07-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

it seems like money is an issue in most people's life in singapore nowadays. and it's really sickening to be stuck with this and that. at this age, im feeling it too. and coz of money, there's just too many restrictions. bullshit. haizz.. its kinda dumb how these stupid pieces of paper can actually ruin one'slife and most importantly, happiness. so does happiness really exist without money??

anihoos, y'dae i get to spend my whole day with sweetheart. it was awesomely superb. i really enjoyed myself. it's so rare now to spend a whole day just with him. no one needs to know the details. sweet memories. terrific day with boyfriend.

today, i manage to get all my plans done. met boyfriend before he went off for solat here. finally paid a bit of my sickening bill and bought a packet of rice for my mum and off he went to the masjid. surprise for him when he got back. he was rushing for time so he didnt manage to cook his lemak cili padi and i happened to tell mak. while i was folding the clothes, she was busy at the kitchen. and then when she's done, she asked me "zurin makan sambal belacan??" and then after replying her she told me "tu mak da siapkan kuah lemak cili padi bilang ngan zurin tinggal goreng ayam masokkan jek. ni ade asam pedas ikan pari sikit ngan belacan." and she went on and on. hehe.. how sweet of her. hehe.. a small bag turned into a big bag and i could recall vividly his expression. haha.. my kiddish billabong bag actually looks cool on him. hahahaha!

and then in the late afternoon, i went out and get some stuff with nana and azam. it was nice. after so long. finally have the time to spend with nana. :)

anihoos, to my dear one, dun be upset okie! keep smiling and dun always frown kayy.. love u! :)

get lost.

from the front seat

2009-07-14T22:03:00.002+08:00

nana was asking me about deja vu and whether i believe in my dreamss. yess i always have deja vu and about believing in my dreams. lets just say i choose to believe in it if its good but if its bad, of coz not.. anw, my deja vu is like random dreams which came out of nowhere.. but long long dreams, it dun normally happen. so yeah..

anihoos, i have been to dunearn sec for relief teaching for two days - since monday. a lil weird i find it. ok. lets just say they are different. and i came across nothing like this. a good experience, i must say. just now, i relief sec 3 nt class for 5 periods continuosly! i think the 8 students and i got bored of one another. hehe... i dunno if i shud write what happened exactly but i think i should just stop here. :)

and aft relief at DSS, i went to nyjc for CCM. was very early and by the time lesson started i was already very3 tired although all i did was babysit the classes. and then met z and yeay!! i got my fillet o fish! thank u!! hehehehe.. all's good.. :)

wow-ness.

i wish for a lovely sunday

2009-07-12T22:52:00.005+08:00

today, i spent the day at home coz firstly, i feel sick thanks to being in the rain and also, coz my aunts and cousins were coming. as usual, took aidin for tuition. which was waht?? colouring and alil bit of writing.. hahahaha! wad the hell.. hehe.. and i went wow over cheap goods in catalogues.. haha.. for first time. and maybe the last. lol..

so geram with this small camwhore that i feel like biting him! hehehe.. cute lil smarty one..

y'dae's ndp was fun! we got our costumes! yeay!! and it was super fun coz the big four were back! plus kristine! i was very happy and thankfully wirdah got no costume so she took mine and i took a smaller size and it fits just so nicely and she could fit in mine just as nicely too! but poor us, we got pair of shoes too small for our feet and went home with all crampy toes and feet. thankfully, i brought my strawberry slippers! which ain was attracted to! please la,slipa jamban can??? but cute! hahahaha! nana! since u always use ours, u wanna sell urs away??? lol.

yes.. so we finally joined the carebear forces.. erm.. ppl at home says im selling walls ice cream??!! wth!!! hehe.. who cares.. and yeah.. its the first ne showand these kids were irritating as they were so demanding with the colours of the balloons and the shape they wanted. hehe.. please laa.. we dun have that many colors. haha.. but all in all it was fun laa.. at least they r ppl who appreciate our amateur skill of balloon making.. heeee.. oh, i got carried away and made a sword and parrot tak menjadi and flower for aidin just now coz they chuck the remaining ballons in my bag. hehehe..

and for once, it rained heavily. just nice when they open our "house window" for us. hehehe.. dina was thinking wad effect is that.. dots.. its rain my dear rain!! hehehe.. waahh.. so much for a hdb flat. leaking la can???!!! hehehe.. but i didnt get wet there but at the stairs.. hehe. in fact i was having fun collecting rain water. hahaha! i was too dry that i got shock the back of the flat was already so wet. hehe.. all in all, it was fun. the monkeys never fail to irritate us. and we just fail to understand wads up with these army guys, u sure dun like these girls, i mean, monkeys, but u still layan them. wth.. and and please laaa.. monkeys got fleas and u dun just anyhow shake ur bloody damn wet hair around like ur at some club or smtg.. and u dun just fit in to our group photos or show off ur friggin butts in our photos. please go to the mirror and check out for urself how u look like can??? so so pissed. ok enuff of my rants. hahahaa! anw i had a good time talking to wirdah ydae. :) went home straight and reached home at almost 12 and my dad had the cheek to tell me i was lying abt the rain when i was already half drenched and freezing.. heh!

anihoos, have plans for tomorrow. i better wake up early to finish up all the unfinished business and also to get my photo taken.. hopefully the photo will turn out fine. like ain said, dun end up like her who looks like filipino maid in her pass photo! hehehehe!! funny funny!!

i love him for his sincerity. :)

more CCM

2009-07-09T15:39:00.003+08:00

im staying home all day coz i feel a bit sick.. starting to cough here and there.. but nothing serious.. :) shall take the time to get some admin stuff done and also, do more cards! it shall be my third card. hehehe.. nothing special but just simple..

so not pro laa..

anihoos, yesterday before gg to SIM, went to pasir ris sec for CCM. for once boys are more enthu than girls! amazing.. i was told they are a good bunch but i think its just like a normal chatty bunch. hahaha! noisy and naughty boys.. but bearable. :) hopefully i can teach them again. its nicer teaching them than the st marg class. but must teach3 coz they got no break and stuff. hehe.. played hangman and pass-the-message game with them. funny kids..

met asnira and diy at SIM. asnira gave me the ring she promised and its red and it looks nice! i love it! hehehehe.. and went home all tired aft a long day.. okie i tink that't it. nothing much.. :)

better chances, please. :)

living in a pig sty.

2009-07-07T09:42:00.003+08:00

am i really sick or am i just feeling sick? and i missed another chance of RT. i hope they wont sto calling me. dumb me.. haizz.. done my lesson plan for nyjc's class later. :) i just feel like spending my time outside watcing cartoon aft diz before i head down to school. hehe.. nana has been telling me to get some cards done and yes! i will do it, maybe tonight itself! haha.. i have 'tags' in mind.. :) dun steal my idea ok! hahahahaha!!

i can't wait for tomorrow. meeting up with asnira and diy. :) i'm still in a state of confusion. but i dunno what to think and what's best for me-self. hmmmm... all i know for now is that when im free, i should get the mess out of my room! how long have i not take a good look at this room and clear the junks. haha! nothing much to do actually, just put away the papers from nana's room, clear the bin, put away the clothes into the closet and arrange the bags neatly and do my bed. hahaha.. and i will do it immediately. :)

S.O.S the closet!

take care, my friends!

2009-07-05T15:06:00.002+08:00

y'day ndp was ok laa.. first of all.. i was kinda lonely coz the close ones werent there.. dina, ain and farhanah were on quarantine coz they were in close contact with 2 H1N1 girls when they were at camp. i hope farhanah and dina get well soon and that nothing goes wrong with ain so that we can meet again next week! and wirdah.. just went m.i.a. i might have offended her but i didnt know it will drag on. miscommunications. its annoying but i did my part by apologising alr.. HAIZ.. and then to make things worse, kristine was sent home coz of her cough! more boredom.. and and yas and saiha was telling me abt monkey. again, some guys were asking who r they. or more like who is she.. and they were complaining how nosiy and attracting attention she was. we had a good laugh abt it bt i told them, she got wad she wanted. ATTENTION. but bad attention.. haha! prolly she loves it! oh wells.. bitches!

anihoos, almost ev1 got their costumes alr. i am one of the exceptions. at least the primers have their blue shirts but me?? i was soo outstanding with my purple shirt and jeans. it was weird but i had to gather so much courage to do the things. i made new friends! :) coz i was alone and then the row i am dancing in was empty so they put in other students from sp and yeah.. new friends i have! hehe.. and for once, there's no reflection but instead, an online reflection. how cool??! hehehe.. i can't wait to write reflection. hehe. all i know is at the end of the day i was soo exhausted and went to sleep immediately aft shower. i enjoyed myself. :)

im suppose to meet him at harbour front but i am late as in late to reach harbour front but early to reach anywhr else.. so ya, im waiting for him to beep me to meet at choa chu kang. hehe.. it looks like a gloomy weather.. anw, im late coz i was making a card for his nephew. hehe.. and and.. my dad asked me to dye his hair! which made me much more late.

im restaurant city-ing. finally!! the wc facilities are in use!! aaahh!! soo happy!! hahahaha!

lovely sunday..

love the smell of rain..

explosive head of mine

2009-07-02T19:49:00.009+08:00

currently am at tiong bahru plaza, waiting for nana to finish her exams in less than 2 hours? poor her.. i 'tortured' her.. i bought her tender chicken instead of tendergrill.. lol.. how blur can i be.. as usual not myself.. too much on my mind that such a simple thing also i cannot remember..

its kinda dumb following her all the way here.. but its better than staying home. althou i know i shud be home. my head is feeling kinda wrong. i must be too stressed about some things. some people may be laughing their ass off at me for what i am gg thru right now.. oh wells..

anihoos.. i was watching episode 1 of cinderella man and i thought KSW's role is more suitable for lee jun ki.. hehe.. but nvm that. yoona's there.. so its ok! :)

god, my head is sooo headach-ish.. that i dunno what to blog.. more like i forgot. haha.. toodles..

let the past go.

puffing away

2009-06-29T21:50:00.004+08:00

a monday spent away from home almost half the day feels good. away from all the home crap. :)

anihoos. sat ndp was kinda fun apart from having female monkeys very close to us. god, i hope their virus is not contagious. how does it feel to act so cheap and 'menggelitis' when u see guys?? one of the worst i have ever met. isn't it embarrasing when u do things like some 'pompan gila' thinking that u get all the attention from these army boys but in actual fact all u get is "what the hell" thoughts from them?? come on la.. stupid bitches! grow up! ur not from some jungle.. and for god's sake. u got nothing to show so please.. dun try to show off anything.. to all, these monkeys are all at level 8 on the 'flat'. look out for them! hahaha! hdb flat is fun! and while gg down the steps, smtg embarrasing happened to me and it sent the boys laughing at me! wth! and and for us, motivating is not our main job anymore. sadly. and we miss many many parts of the ndp fun! sigh. but its ok! the companion is great soo nothing matters. :)

and im just wondering if ppl talking about *** actually know what it actually is, or have they even done it before to talk so much abt it.. some just sound soo desperate for it and make themselves sound so cheap. so what if u think ur hot stuff. for all u know, ur actually not. bunch of nonsense, attention seeking fools. i think some girls just deserve criticism. (ppl of such, if this hurts or bothers u, too bad.)

im taking a different path from everybody else. but i hope success will be mine one day. i dun care what ppl think but i just wanna live my life coz ultimately, what i do is for my own good. what's to come i dunno. but i will definitely not give up. and thank u to all that has given me all the strength to move on. sometimes, failure is a good thing coz it gives me a chance to be a little different. :)

i haven't been feeling too good recently. with random headaches and nauseas feelings. i wonder what' up with me. i wanna go for a medical checkup but what did my mum tell me?? "ade jek.." upset. but i shall not listen to her. although i dun trust doc, but for my own good, i should go, right??

and so far, nana is the only human i know that eats wasabe??!!! craziness.. being ambitious, it actually stung her nose. hahahaha!! how weird is she.. belacan no eat wasabe got eat.. siao! hahaha.. ohkie.. that's smtg random.. thr's nothing much to update in here coz it will just be more random stuff. so ya. toodles for now! :)

dun be dampened by failures.

plain boring thursday

2009-06-25T17:09:00.002+08:00

today is jut a plain boring day. i've got nothing to do staying at home. sms aft sms and games aft games.. now.. its videos after videos.. and more games.. hehe.. playing all those puzzle games which requires u to find so many objects just makes u feel so kero-fied. hahaha.. waht a word is dat.. since im so free, i shall download some songs and update my mp4 as well. :) can't wait for tomorrow and saturday. at least with things to do, i wont get my mind so stressed thinking of all those stupid things. gosh! im so bloody worried..

just 8teen going 9teen..

scrapbooking hooked!

2009-06-22T00:13:00.003+08:00

just ended a session of scrapbooking with fira. haha.. i tink i can open up a class on scrapbooking for kids! kay.. its more like simple art class. lol.. its on her cameron trip. a simple one.. but awesome! :) (sorry for poor quality photos..)

a job well done!

gerek sey!! hehehe..

2009-06-21T21:17:00.003+08:00

cameron's nice view.. up the winding narrow road..

the jeep jahanam.. that's wad cik nan called it. haha! alot noe!!

our tumbling photo taken by fira!

went to the playround this evening with fira. yeah, another sleepover here since last night. :) i realised accompanying kids to the playground for an adult is quite a bore. and waiting for other kids to give up the swing takes forever! haha.. and one moment i saw this tudong girl wearing jubbah and at first i thought she was like, so alim and sweet but kerek type of girl. and apparently, her younger bro was there and then she started talking like soo 'disgustingly' and started running in the jubbah!! she really look very matured. like a primary or a lower secondary sch kid? but her perangai is soo kebudak"an! wads wrong with her.. note: don't judge a book by its cover.

anihoos, went for scrapbooking workshop this morning with nana. i fell in love first with the apartment!! and then i fell in love with scrapbooking, of course!! it was simply great. an awesome simple guided lesson. here's the two amatuers workpiece. hehe.. copyrighted hor! :p i can't wait to do scrapbooking for other stuff! soo my thing! ;)

nana's.

mine! :)

yesterday's ndp training was awesomely the best so far that i had! it was our first training at the floating platform and watching the rehearsal was fun!! love the defence stuff.. and super looking forward to next week coz a bunch of us are up to some 'challenge'. can't wait to try out being the hdb flat owners!! hahahaha!! yippee!!

but the best part yesterday is the companion of course! can't forget how all the shocking thing which happened. ain, dina, farhanah and wirdah shud noe wad im talking abt.. its damn funny! i laughed till i cried!! hehe.. didnt noe ain was coming, and wirdah was pretending not to know her and pat my lap so hard that i thought there was some bug or smtg and i got uber shocked and made the others shocked too. can't forget mingchin's reaction. hahahaa!! poor dina and farhanah looked super tired and at night, all just looked so exhausted. hehehe.. but i was high like no one's business! maybe excited coz long time nvr meet girl friends.. haha.. and then met zurin and had dinner for abit and went home.. :)

kayy.. shall go and shower now.. haha.. had a fun afternoon video calling with zurin and then all three of us (me, him and fira) were playing restaurant city aft me and fira were playing pet society. haha! i think both lappies here are screaming SLEEEEPPP!!! hehehe.. toodles!!

never give up.

see a HIKMAH in everything that happens.

cameron highland trip

2009-06-18T13:59:00.003+08:00

as requested by dina.. here's a gist of my cameron trip :)

went with two other families of my father's siblings. a total of 4 families. stayed in an apartment at strawberry park resort. the weather is soo cooling especially at night. and the place is way up high that we have to travel all the way down the swirling road to get our lunches and dinners.

i cant realli recall what exactly we do on each day. as i said, the trip mcm da basi gitu. hehe.. but we did go to the tea plantation place where we also ate scones, but i think popeye's taste better. lol. and we also went to the strawberry park! me and fira get to pluck strawberries. she was so excited and funny. it was fun with her around. hehe.. getting cactus was also funny. she just choose to get those non-thorny one. my dear, cactus are meant to be that way. i think she's a sweet lil thing. she always find things for her family members before herself. the funny thing is she got her sibs cactus and dad honey and mother strawberries and.. SLIMMING TEA!! LOL. how thoughtful. hehe..

wad else.. oh ya.. before reachin cameron we went to perak to this hot spring la. it was nice.. and ya, sacrificed myself to get my pants wet for fira. she was shy and that tym no fren so i had to accompany her do evtg. and on the way home, again to perak. went to lost world of tambun. it's like sunway lagoon and surprisingly nana mandi oso! hehe.. and during one of the stops before reaching singapore, we had a&w for dinner.. yumyumyum!! actually more like supper. ohkie.. had cony dog.. did i spell it correctly?? idk. but the name itself sounds weird. haha.. but it was great! hehehe.. basically, its a relaxing trip and i had a job that is be fira's guardian. haha.. ohkie i tink that's all.. hehe.. photos are up in facebook. :)

i skip gg to cerating. which was from monday to today. poor fira, she was crying and saying she miss me.. so touched. hehe.. she nvr did that before.. and on tues, she sms me to tell me she missed me. and she swam with syafiqah twice and she catch a crab with yani. but it wasn't fun coz i wasnt around.. hehe.. how cute. the night they were going off, she kept calling and beg me to go.. "acik.. ikot la.. boleh enjoy.. nanti adik tkde kawan.. kakak same kakak nur same zahran together nanti adik sorang.. ikot la.. acik rindu abg zurin eh... alaa.. boleh laa.. 4 hari jek.." hehehe.. isn't she cute?? love her lotss. can't wait for her to return.

i have regrets..

sweet vacation

2009-06-10T08:41:00.007+08:00

ooh, just got back from pahang yesterday nite and now, needa do another round of packing up coz im leaving for cameron tonight! believe it or not. lol. im still kinda tired from the 2d 1n trip but i must say it was fun! and im in for another set of fun with another bunch of people.

anihoos, i needa do soo much today so, i will update more on my pahang trip when i get back from cameron? ya.. that shud be it. so much to do today! gotta pack my bag again, meet up my dearest, go for an interview and pick up my little cousin from her house, etc3.. and all these to be done by 8pm preferably.

so near yet so far.

//edited. leaving for cameron tonight!

RIDZURIN! UR MISSED!!

now even further..

life journey sharing

2009-06-07T09:05:00.011+08:00

had ndp training yesterday. met up dina and ain in the morning at bedok mac. wirdah was sleeping! and nvr meet us and she got lao sai.. haha.. ohkayyy.. this time round, cluster activity wasless tiring than the previous ones. had life journey sharing.. listening to kh, kris, mc and cl was fun. as in, i really learn alot abt life. and not just think of my life as trash or something liddat. oh wells.. i needa do some reflection on my own life and learn from what had happened and see for myself what's good and bad and what's significant and cherish all that i can. :) really appreciate the session with the 4 of them. sadly, next week i cannot be there and will miss alot of the others sharing..

yeah, this is my room color!

oh, ignore the spot on that wall.. smtg wrg with the camera. haha!

sweet pink & lollipop!

ohkie! im soo looking forward to tomorrow.. coz im going pahang! ok, like for once, im looking forward to gg pahang.. never in my life im looking forward to pahang trips! lol. yeayy!!! k, we r gg back coz of a relative wedding.. and will be back the next day.. and the interesting thing is that we r gg all ladies and kids! (plus one man only) hahaha..

CHERISH.

say no more to title-less

2009-06-03T10:29:00.003+08:00

yesterday was a rushy day, or mayb not. haha.. had lessons at nyjc, but before that, drop by orchard to send iman's phone for servicing (at sony ericsson s.c). i realised the ladies at the counter have a jacket each which looks like big bang's. lol. had to wait for like 15mins or so before my turn and then, at the counter, the lady told me that they could not accept the phone coz of blablabla.. i dunno wads with the non-export thingy but yeah.. waste my time. period.

and then took the train to dhoby ghaut (yes, i know, walking distance. but im like gonna be late and the weather was hot) to PS and bought all those cutey cutey nice nice stuff which cost me $45 and then went to nyjc. class was ohkay. played a word game with them.. kinda interesting at least there are noise and no yawns. haha.. while walking down, was talking to dina abt some stuff but due to some reasons have to cut it short. realised that, it has been a while we really get to sit down and talk. oh, how i miss those days. ohkay, n im normally the one who has alot to talk about. and ~~may~~ june outing shall be planned soon! :) then, i met zurin and yeah... i answered to that question already. XD oh wells, hopefully everything goes fine from now..

and ooh, found this photo when i was searching for random pics. canu imagine if really these princesses go bonkas?? gosh! funny i must say. and ugly too. hehe..

today's another day.

whymustallthishappentome

2009-05-31T13:01:00.004+08:00

yesterday had ndp session again. somehow, im glad wirdah's around. coz i felt out of place when they started talking abt sch and stuff.. i realli feel crushed. but i just ignore that feeling and i know i wasn't myself. i was restless and i didn't enjoy myself as much like others did.

somehow, i tink having close people around like family and friends at times are good and at times are bad. when ur feeling down and hopeless, nobody's really there for u. and it's upsetting when u hope that at least there's someone who can really understand u and help u and encourage u to move on is actually non-existant..

am i suppose to be in isolation? or am just being paranoid? everything doesn't seem right. maybe i said too much already all this while. i can sense there's something amissed when im around them. given a choice, i wanna make an escape.

im losing it.

lolli lolli lollipop!

2009-05-27T22:26:00.005+08:00

ohkay.. so today, there's no lesson at st. marg pri. and yesterday was the last lesson for the primary 3 students. let them watch upin&ipin. but the internet connection was super slow that it wasn't that exciting anymore. and i had a bad day yesterday that i totally forgotten to buy the students candies. and we realise smtg, the test was quite redundant actually. oh wells. just glad it's ended! :)

and it was raining heavily ydae, i sardine-ly went to the condo's security post and borrowed his umbrella. haha.. really.. poor dina, she was drenched thanx to me, who dun have a habit of carrying an umbrella. hehehe.. and she was wearing white and ya, just imagine, she getting all wet. hehe.. anw, thank u dina for the lil something! it made my day la, i must say.. haha.. HUGS to my no-hug-friend! :)

and then, went home had my dinner and then went to mcd with nana, when smtg happened. kids growing up nowadays.. they are just annoying.. their eyes deserve some poking! haha!

and today, i wanted to meet dina to watch her teach ain and farhanah the dance steps but since nana was taking half day leave, i decided to go home and get some painting done to my room! so i went for brunch with z and we met nana at cck and headed home. and taa-daa!! thanx to nana mostly for painting most of it (u have strong muscles, babe!!), and also kakak (she help me clean up) , its all done! SUPER PINKISH ROOM! its nice laa.. for a change. first. pink camera (oh man! i still havent send my batt charger for repair!), then pink kelambu then pink room?? hehe.. funny.. but true!! everything nicely done except for my bookshelf which is still un-cleaned up. haha. oh wells.. i hate the bookshelf so i hate cleaning it too. Oohkay,i cant upload pix now, so cant share with u how my room looks like. bt oh wells. haha..

while cleaning up, i found the note huyang gave for v day, which says smtg like 'hope u find ur Mr. Right soon!' and then i was wondering if i had. and i think so. :) we may have our past, but i hope we can start anew with each other. and that we will be happy together, nvr sick of each other. lol. :)

tomr, i wanna go out on a date. and then.. damn! i had to cancel it coz my mum asked me along to do some house cleaning at some apartment. sigh. i hate cleaning windows! and im tired! and i wanna go out!!! :S but i hope aft the whole thing ends, i could meet him. coz i really want to!!

ok, nana wanna play game, i shall stop here. good nite peepos!

HUGS&KISSES.

it's a home day!

2009-05-24T16:36:00.002+08:00

the whole day today, im at home. and im up quite early. hehe.. i must say, it's a fruitful day as in, i manage to hand wash my clothes and vacuum the house and followed kakak to the shop. oh! surprise for me! she bought me paint for my cosy lil room!! wooohooooo!! excited! i can't wait to paint my room with these colors - lollipop and sweet pink. the name tells it all, they're both shades of pink! hehe.. i cant wait to start painting my room and get rid of unimportant stuff!! hehe.. hopefully my room will look more spacious. ohkayy.. dun ask me what's with pink. its a change. haha.. nana! my room's gonna be pink! will u still enter it?? hahaha!! if u duwan, i can pt a no entry sign with nana's face in it! lol. no, actually i was tinking of oink oink sign. hahahahah!! :p

i was watching some videos. came across the one where son dambi and after school were dancing to lose my breath by destiny's child. guess what i heard? the breath sounded like breast!! lol! i was like ohkieee.. and salutes to son dambi!! she was soo awesome dancing with those high heels! the heels look like they're gonna break any moment with that kind of dancing.. hehe.. and and love shinee's juliette (correct spelling?) ! after school's dream girl is also nice! im soo enjoying myself at home.. hehe.. it's been quite a while i could spend time like this doing the old things i used to do.. hehe..

my mum was complaining to my dad about me thou coz i have been out almost everyday and i hardly do housework. and then she told me this.. "biar! tk buat keje rumah.. mak buang computer adik!" hehehe.. how funny is that.. and she also said that i have to learn how to do housework.. how to cook.. hehe.. my dad hasa brilliant idea of asking me to wake up early and go to the market. how brilliant is that?? dotsss.. -_-''

i wanna have a normal youth life..

its a saturday blues

2009-05-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

early in the morning i already headed for ite simei for the ndp motivator training. apparently its only until 1 plus. had dance practice.. in which, we saw this really unlikable minah (was she from rp?) with this long hair and bitchiness stuck in her body and face. super bui tahan her. gross-ness. typical malay girls. and her bunch of friends are also damn rowdy laa.. there's this plump girl whom i named 'hoogashagaa', not bad.. dance with boys and she's got the moves.. but wahlao super a.a. hahaha.. wanted to meet wirdah up but instead saw hisham, long-tym-no-see fren. and then we (the small grp + the sp students) were having games aft that. we played the food junction. started from bedok and down to tampines. i really cannot wait to go off coz of my lousy stomach.

and then wash up and headed to yew tee cc with zurin to watch puteri's performance. very abstract but enjoyable. :) didnt manage to take photo with put coz i dun hav a camera with me. and she was busy with her frens and i went off first so didnt get to talk much to her. really miss her alot. hehe.. then went for late dinner at cck park. and home sweet home..

what's true love?

sucky

2009-05-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

life feels so sucky and shitty. i noe, im not entirely happy with life. and im always in a daze recently.. wad am i to do.. im really looking forward to june.. please come soon.. rid me off my worries.. please..

i messed up again.

ka palli ka

2009-05-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

a clumsy day, i must say. and i almost got myself killed but didn't. got scolded a few times today. it feels like shit. i don't like it but i asked for it. damn me. sigh. but i had fun. met z for breakfast and watched 'wolverine' at tm. quite a 'hanging' ending thou. but it's okie, daniel henny is in there as zero (thou he only appeared in the beginning)!!! hugh jackman is hot laa.. hehe.. and then, went for nyjc class. alil pathetic with oni 4 students around. but its ok. the lesson still went on. :)

and i must say again, i miss schooling, i miss uniform and i miss hanging out in school with frieends. all those good carefree days, put aside the workload which i never finished plus the A level stress. come to think of it, A levels, seems like much effort was put in, but really, it was nothing much. hmmmmm... oh wellss.. its over. now to worry is uni admission. its really bothering me for i've yet to get any reply from any uni. what's to be of me. :(

a part of me tell me to let loose, to let go. bt i duno which part exactly.. listen to your heart, sha. do what's best for yourself and dun rush into things which ur uncertain of. :)

it's all about me now.

movies moods.

2009-05-11T14:32:00.002+08:00

after hotel for dogs with asnira, it was fast & furious was next with zurin. and then 17 again with dina. and im in the mood for more movies! 'the ramen girl' seems nice, 'star trek' seems cool (& there's chris pine!) and of course, 'wolverine'. :) & & there's nicer movies coming out soon!! hehehe..

ohkayy.. enuff of checking out movies.. hehehe.. damn, why the sudden pimple breakout??? grrrr.. its like huge huge ones.. and in one, there are soo many small ones. had a twin one. and in there got 6 smaller pimples. damn.. and i have one dominating my cheek, again.. wth. oh wells..

yesterday, there was like a mini party here with my mum's siblings over. kecohness. shepherd's pie and tiramisu with nana on saturday and then to imm with azam, nana and zurin to buy the cake. appearently, secret recipe's black forest cake is not nice at all.. except for the cream. hehehe.. and those are for yesterday. and then pizza. fira and i decorated the pizza and kakak bakar. lakuuu.. hahahaha!! not bad not bad.. hehehe.. and the whole day, my lappy was on. nana and iman was crazily playing games.

its holiday today bt its like other days. except that only me and nana at home with iman. and mom n dad and kakak went jb with my aunts and uncle. haha.. for a change, its not me leaving home. hehe.. ohkayss.. off to video-ing.. k, eating spoilt sour porridge yesterday night makes me feel alil sick. hehehe..

wish i could shake it up..

emergency state.

2009-05-09T22:29:00.003+08:00

it's not the best time to be blogging. i need my journal. damn, i noe im doing fine but why am i feeling this way.. speechless and no one to talk to, i wanna clear my head. how bothersome when happiness has got many restrictions.

blender analogy.

away from all the darn things

2009-05-04T22:46:00.003+08:00

25th apr, saturday, went to seoul garden, marina square with my family. my appetite was lousy but i did have some fun. marshmallow and chocolate yumyummm.. and happy thing is after my dad left, z came along with us for some shopping. haha..

sunday, 26th apr, marked a special thing. hehehehe.. my rejection changed into something else.. and then went to vivo with z. it was fun just walking around and spending time together. :)

and tuesday, both dina and i were lazy to go to nyjc for our lessons. and there was test conducted in st marg's. cancelled nyjc class. and test was a slow one! grrrr... nida speed up tomorrow or im gonna be dead!! lessons in st marg's was quite annoying. great students but too much noise! hmpf.. but there are love. something happened on this very day. hehehe.. funny han jun (she hugged me and kissed something..) and some of them were just sooo clingy and everywhere around me. must be trying to be cute so that i wont give them the test. hehehe.. funny kids.. collectd my lappie finally aft dat! hehe..

thursday to saturday KL trip with nana and her in-law family. it was fun, i enjoyed myself although the day before i dint wanna go. and then, my flight and their flight is actually the same so it was better. i will upload pic in multiply. lazy laa narrate everything back. lol. it was quite kecoh, rushing for the flight back and forth. lol!

and sunday afternoon till today, slept over at mokde's place and met z. hehe. aft soo long. and just now, z and i followed mamayat and makbusu to jb. fun. haha. z got stuck thanx to my bag and i just feel like cursing the short cisco guy for always being involved.. damn him.

ohkayy.. that's about it, the happy moments. k, it went beyond happy but certain things just hve to happen to make it lousy.. but bottomline, im happy. :)

and oh, i have to agree with dina, what's up with these ppl with just knowing and getting addicted to nobody. it's so last season la.. thank god, i was still on track at that time. hehehee.. i still owe dina her photos with her students and her videos. and im feeling weak.

sweetheart.

saeng-il chu'ka hamnida!!

2009-04-20T21:31:00.004+08:00

생 일 축 하 합 니 다, ㄴㅏㄴㅏ!!

unnie! saranghaeyo!!

hurry up come back ohkies!!!

palli palli!! hehehe..

(and finding a photo with u is hard all of a sudden! macam tak byk amek gamba gitu ngan kau!!)

not like she care, but happy birthday again nana!! may u stay healthy and happy and loaded always!! hehehe.. i noe u duwanna come back but u must! coz i miss u alot!! hehe..

yesterday, went to ikea and bought stuff. initially i dun intend to get anything but my mum made me buy a new kelambu and i chose the pink one! haha.. and new curtains! :) lovess. and i 'saw' zurin there.. hehehe.. funny funny... and again today, i met him. hehe.. it was fun. thank you!! :)

hmm.. i finally gave it some deep thought to what im doing... i duwanna stay confused forever and i thought, when it comes to loving someone, it doesn't really matter the age or the background, what matters is that he loves me and is willing to accept me for who i am and is happy being with me.. :) that's all i wanna think of now.. :)

ohkayy.. im soo sad!! my camera battery charger is gg zonk!! ergghh!!! kayys.. off to lesson plan. looking forward to tomorrow. weeee!! :)

whatever im doing,

im gonna do it right.

we'd be burning

2009-04-18T21:08:00.003+08:00

great!! i lost the entry and i have to re-type everything.. here it goes again... hehe..

we'd be burning.. it reminds me of the song we used in danz xplosion when we were in sec 4. hehe.. it was fun! with the dance crew and the hiphop and 'tango' steps with lester.. hehe.. aww.. miss all those fun now.. school days are the best.. now, there's nothing as interesting as that to look forward to..

anw.. BURNT. that's the word that describes how i am now.. totally burnt! all red like a bbq-ed prawn. i feel like plastic. anytime my skin feels like peeling off.. even touching my forehead is enuff to make me feel all painful. today, red.. tomorrow.. brown!!! errgghhh!!! even pinching my nose hurts... burnt burnt burnt!!

this is the result of playing touch rugby in the scorching sun early in the morning till afternoon. it really felt terrible being in the sun after soo long. but its ok. i get to keep up with stef, xiao wei and ashley and the other rugby boys.. hehehe.. it was fun but tiring.. its been quite a long time ever since i ran around and be in the sun.. and today is like the 'best' timing to play laa.. ended up getting all burnt and red. boohoo..

i got soo tired and i felt like the sun already slurp all my brain juice that i decided not to go for my arabic lesson and rest at home instead. anw, the weather made me feel giddy and migrain-ish. so, no point go lesson whats more, im lost in last few weeks class. so i better revise. hehe.. i had a lot of fun today.. :)

10kg gone.

confused is the word, but heck

2009-04-16T15:13:00.007+08:00

i was just watching the liverpool - blackburn game just now. kae, yaa.. very back dated but i have been busy recently and missed the live telecast. hehe.. awesomeness!! torres(!!!) with 2 goals and agger(!!!) with one and ngog with another.. super awesome goals.. especially the one from agger! like WOW!! hehehe.. and and torres goal kick was fabulous! and his header, gorgeous! love the part when gerrard, alonso and torres sat together at the stand. hehehe..

anihoos, y'dae i skipped yogilates. i felt bad for making dina go alone. ok la, she got her fren.. but yaaa.. i still feel bad.. hehe.. bt it's ok dina!! i will go with u next week!! hehehe.. i had much of the rest i need yesterday.. :)

suddenly, i can't wait for school to start. (am i for real??) hmmm.. but not totally laa.. hehehe.. i can't wait for nana and ayah to get back! so much to look forward to!!! aaaahhhh!!! hehehehehe... 2 things to look forward to with them and and more in MAY, when ain is free and we shall get some outing going on.. hehe.. and and i wanna meet chungjiayu too! watching chelsea game the other night was funny. we were sms-ing our happiness and agony on the match.. liverpool was winning and then dhuha sms-ed me and crap abt liverpool losing.. and before that even imran told me so on msn. damn their curses. hehe. and i have 2 ppl sms-ing cursing liverpool and only jiayu was hoorray-ing together with me and going oh no! when chelsea started catching up.. hehe.. that game, was really a chaos, not only on the field but also on the phone. sungguh tak khusyuk tgk ni game!!! hehehehe... i cant even remember much of the game.. sms-ing like 4 ppl at a time my fingers almost ache. hehehe.. but it was fun, not 'alone'. hehehe.. poor liverpool not getting into semi. sigh! its okay!! hehe..

im so free today.. staying home and watching tv and washing my clothes and stuff. it's quite a bore but staying home at times is just the best thing that could happen.. hehe.. i wanted to go out and get my new earpiece. damn my current earpiece, getting spoilt at this time.. sigh.. i shall watch some videos and then read some books.. oh, last entry i was talking abt fast and furious 4. of all the things that amazes me, one thing that really got me shocked is.. the awesome sound track!! it's amazing coz.. there's 'rising sun' in it during the chase!!! haha! unbelievable. :) toodles peepos.

// ooh.. i edited a lil on the last entry.. the part on ili.

happy of course.
but a lil lost..

.....................................................................

//4.30pm entry

i'm soo happy!! nana just sms-ed me.. god knows how much i miss her!! she's not feeling too well and im kinda worried for her. i really wish i could be there with her and take care of her.. she really made herself and me cry while sms-ing each other. she was telling me how much she misses me most and kept thinking of me whenever she goes to the masjid. it's like, i left soo much memory be it the 1st time or 2nd time we went there.. it's azam's first time so when they pass by certain places, ayah n nana must have told him about me. nana went to burger king and she was hoping so badly i would be there with her.. and they passed by this kfc and my dad started telling azam abt me and the kids' meal. when i went i was just 6 or 7 and at that time, chicken is just love and the toy was cute watches!! so i always buy the meals to get all the watches. hehehe. and i think we did get the watches for my close cousins. did we? hehe.. and in the masjid, i sleep there and do stupid2 things like nobody's business. hehehe.. the weather there is just too hot and u just feel so lethargic and wanna sleep. hehe.. awww.. how i wish i could be there with them now.. it was really awesome back then... soo much memories... if i were to write all down, i think it'll be a very very long entry, so its ok.. hehehe.. and i envy them! they get to watch strawberry shortcake and tum wa jurri (tom & jerry!) in arabic!! hehehe.. how cool???

i miss nana and ayah!! and a.a too!! ALOT!! A.A, i watched 2D 1N with kakak instead y'day.. miss ur laughter la, ABANG AZAM!!! hehehehe.. come back soon ohkies!! hope they are well and that their ibadah is sempurna.. nana, get well soon and you can go shopping ohkies!! and dun cry while washing clothes!! the water is alr salty enuff dun make it saltier!! hehehe.. and nana told me, my dad and a.a just got themselves botak after doing umrah!! OMG!! i really wonder how my dad looks like.. everytime he said he wanted to botak there but i think he only did it TODAY.. hehehe.. historical moment!

without realising,
it's all good memories..

i hate this part right here

2009-04-14T23:31:00.012+08:00

there's this part in life which i just dun understand n i wish not to understand...

i have been facebook-ing from just now and totally forgot about blogging.. hehehe.. it feels like super long since i blog. was uploading photos just now.. how weird.. looked at those old days photos and i miss my long hair but ironically, i feel like cutting my hair again, soon. hahaha.. shaaa..

anw, thursday after sending nana and azam and ayah off for colombo + mecca, went to JB with my beloved aunts. god, i cried like dunno for how many times already at the airport! it's like soo many times already my dad went for trips to the holy place and all the time, i just hav to cry when i hug him. i feel like crap. first of all, im not that close with him anymore but i just feel so sad and 'insecure' without him around. it's weird. i shud be feeling yey!! he's not around.. but deep down, i know that i duwan him to leave me, again and again.. it just feels good having him around some time. and nana. it's like forever sticking to her!! and we only separate like for a few days thanx to camps and stuff la.. but being away from her for 2 weeks??? omg.. i cried even worse when hugging her.. aww.. i miss her now.. funny.. she didnt cry when i left for jakarta.. see!! i love u, dumb arse!! hehe.. i can be an arse too but that's what u love abt me rite??? hehehe.. i just hope they're doing fine now and will have a safe journey home and will be well looked after by Him. Insya Allah. Amiin..

ooiii.. mocongnya.. tak boleh angss.. hehehe..

//edited.
ili.. she's damn funny laa.. after kia left, she was angry at her grandma and grandpa. so i took her from her grandpa and brought her around the canteen. at the nuggets with her and stuff. and i think she thot i was kia.. everytime let her go, she will find me. i think afraid i will leave. so i couldnt take mokde's car home but take kakak's instead so that i will be with her. and she was sitting in front with me and i showed her the pooh bear mini tissue box and she was hugging it and fell asleep hugging it! hehehe.. how cute??!! kids.. sometimes they are just too adorable..

niaz..

niaz again..

mifta.. i love him alot.. hehe..

the kids and the ~~aunty~~ kakak... hahaha!

aww.. kia took this photo.. was crying like hell.. hehe..

ohh.. after JB, my aunt sent me to scotts: orchard condo. meet up with wani at newton mrt adn walked in to meet the rest. i was late for the bbq but not late enuff to miss out them smashing the small chocolate cake on each other. thanx to hamzah and some others, i manage to get away with their dirty tricks. god knows how messy and chocolatey they look. hehe. and then made them stay awhile for borak2 and wait for my sis. played scissors paper stone and the loser got flicked on the forehead. my dumb idea and i lost in the fingers of eddy!! there's a bump in my forehead la. haha!

the boyss...

wani and farid having fun. lol! bilang mak ehhh.. hehehe..

nice place..

birthday boy.. & stove lighter?? so modern?? no candle??

eddy's flick for hamzah.. hehe..

friday to monday. sleepover at my aunt's at bedok reservoir. friday helped her at the stall till late morning. zurin was there. twice. hehe. its soo funny. he actually came down for a second time just to accompany me while my aunt and uncle clean up and stuff. and then, 4am or later i think, picked iman up at tampines and went to bedok north for late supper and headed home to their place and only slept around 6 i think.. yaa.. hectic long day..

saturday, went to class. like finally, i went although nana and azam nt around.. thank god there's zakiah and hanifa. and thankfully, syahid was nice enuff to me and patient too. hehehe.. im damn blur and slow laa.. and i was a lil late thanx to the rain. it was funny how i gamble whether or not to get an umbrella or hail for a cab. lol. end up, the pour finally stopped and mere drizzles onli so i walked fast fast and get to the masji and then to class. hahaha.. im a good girl, nana! i dun lie!! hehehe.. and i took worksheets for u n my dear brother in law.. syahid said im a good sister in law.. LOL. and ur teacher made fun of me about the fiil amr thingy!! kurang asam dier... malu seii!!! hehehe..

sunday.. followed my aunt to onan road and city plaza and then at night, taught the kids tuition. and late night supper again.. nasi lemak at 2.30 am??? crazy or what.. i almost puke! hehe..

and yesterday.. home sweet home!! i miss home soo much luhh!! and my bed and tofu and evtg else.. hahah! i left a huge mess b4 leaving, but nice mum took care of evtg.. i didnt ask her to, but she volunteered. hehehe.. its not dat messy anyway.. its just an over turned wardrobe.. hahaha!! ohkayy.. and then i cleaned up and stuff and went out again, with zurin.. poor him had to go public all thanks to me.. hehe.. watched fast & furious 4.. ohkayy laaa... hehe.. :)

and today! i woke up quite late and had to meet dina slightly later for shopping. hehehe.. but we still manage to shop of course.. hehehe.. i had fun with her.. hehehe.. sempat ni dua ekor gi nyopping sebelom mengajar.. hahahaa!! and nana! i got an ABBA top!! LOL. (inside joke with me as the damn joker! my mum and kakak kept laughing at me when i showed them the baju! BABO!!!) i was soo tempted to get heels but decided not to.. girls and shoes.. oh wellss.. hehe.. and SMPS was as usual. noisy and angry. han jun kept hugging my head.. hehe.. and alicia cried again in class. kids and fren and duwan fren me thing.. hehehehe.. funny funny.. GIRLSS... im still trying hard to get their names right.. lol. NYJC was great. i enjoyed teaching them and i hope they can remember what i taught them. and upin & ipin helps alot! hehe.. and oohh!!! i sang for both classes.. the stupid song bangun pagi.. gosok gigi.. bla bla bla.. hahaha! but SMPS got to hear me sing 'if you're happy' song in malay version.. hahaha.. lucky voice never chao-sia.. lol..

tomr's gonna be a shorter day. i wanna rest. decided not to go for yogilates thanx to something called ehem ehem.. yaaa.. my body feel like breaking right here right now.. hope tomr will be better.. and i hope tomr i wont be as forgetful as i am today! wad a toot. i forgot to bring my mp3... my money-ful ezlink card... and my IC!! (hahaha! when dina reminded me of IC, i kept thinking she said 'I see...' haha.. BABO ME!! ) so yaa.. tomr dun forget la shaaa!!!!

photos from sport's day..

oh, they won't first in the teachers & alumni race. lol.

is it a race they watching? i dunoe..

may & i..

cute jaguar cub? hehe..
they just love taking photos alot!

all black..

i don't want..
but what am i doing???

burn it!

2009-04-09T01:01:00.002+08:00

ah freakz!!! i'm like a few tone darker now!! thanx to the super strong sunlight at cck stadium just now. it was really hot and now my skin hurts! ohkay, great. HICCUPS now!! aiyerr.. hehe.. rosey rosey cheeks and nose will be gone by tomorrow morning and tan skin is back.. booo..

was really tired after turning up at kss sports' day in the morning.. and then followed the other alumni for lunch and headed home. really grab some sleep coz i had insufficient the night before and then all refreshed and went for yogilates.. its really awesomely stretchy this time round.. hehehe.. muscles aching everywhere.. lol..

anihoos, that's abt it. can't wait for liverpool vs chelsea game to start. tomr's gonna be a long day and here i am planning to watch soccer??? hehehe.. toodles.

to be loved is great,
but to love,
its insane..

red masquerade

2009-04-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

finally! done with it! been doing some photography lately.. awesome! love them all.. hehe.. today, im super free, i manage to get quite a lot of things done.. like catching up a lil on a k-drama, watching mb and sort out my photos but only one thing i couldn't do is upload songs into my mp4.. coz nana's alr fast asleep.. its ok.. there's always tomorrow.. :)

im really hoping tomorrow will be great. ooh! i have a lil bit more marking to do! shootz.. and a new class, a smaller class, in nyjc.. hopefully i get great students to teach.. im wondering if im actually asking for shayte coz the lessons will be like an hour away from each other., hopefully i wont be too tired travelling around..

i manage to sit and actually think for myself. getting to know random people. is it wrong? i mean, some may think im being miang or desperate for love. but i beg to defer.. i am scared of getting to know people especially guys. my conscious is clear thou. i just wanna make frens and nothing more than that. but it fears me alot when it crosses my mind that the other person wants more than friendship. seriously, i wont know how to react to that. at first i did think of stopping there and not know them any more than a day. but i realise that i should get to know them bt at the same time, make my stand clear that friends shud be the endpoint, and as i get to know them, i feel like a social worker. hehe. i mean, its like i gt to know how different life could be for people who's nt of the same kind as me and somehow im glad that i could be of some help to them. i did regret to a certain point when i started contacting them but knowing their issues, i feel bad to just 'touch and go' their lives unless they start being ridiculous then goodbye to them. people may think of me any way they want, but i noe myself best and i noe my limits, that's all that matters.. :) and thank u to dina for making me feel better by the sms "kwn2 ok pe".. :)

i wanna meet stranger..

it all has to do with the heart

2009-04-04T23:21:00.010+08:00

"i'm missing stranger alot!"

today seems better than the previous days when i felt sick. and today's a happy day. hehe. & it was the start of our 2nd module of conversational arabic lesson. i was so sleepy, i thought i could actually fall asleep. i wonder how its gonna be like when nana's not gonna be around for the next 2 weeks. hmmm.. anihoos, i better revise back. seriously my language is super karat!

i'm gonna miss her ALOT MORE for the next 2 weeks.

that's nana, for loving bags soo much.

y'dae. went down to nyjc to meet up with mdm loke, tgt with dina, for our new assignment. really looking forward to this small class and hopefully everything goes well. :) while waiting for the rugby boys and the other girls, i accompanied dina for her haircut. hope she likes it. coz i really think its gorgeous on her. i liked it. :) met xiao wei and huey jia and all the others and boarded the bus to junyuan sec to watch nyjc boys first match, against jjc. they lost but its okay.. must keep their morale high adn do better for the next match.. :) i shant talk abt some of the boys on the opposite team.. sighs. long ride home in 67 is a killer i must say.

yudhi, act cute ah!

fawas onli finds us for WATER. wth.

thank u for the smile thou ur shoulder's popped out alr.

tomr, gonna go to some weird place i never been to for kendarat. hopefully things will go fine. :) and and i can't wait for the liverpool match to begin.. meanwhile, i shall upload some photos. my multiply is really lagging behind. toodles.

yesterday felt so far away.

my heart's not open to anyone..
what do i do..

nanti aku jadinya gubrak!

2009-04-02T11:44:00.005+08:00

love this song but there's something very Acha-ish about this Intan Nuraini. oh wells.. && this song is really like so true and this kinda guys should be kicked in the arse. lol. the guitarist is hot thou. hehe..

anihoos, recently, i have been thinking alot about gg out on a date. somehow, it just feels weird to even think of gg out with a guy.. wads more to have a boyfriend. i can keep in touch and be-friend them but it just freaks me out when it comes to going out , just the 2 of us. is there anything wrong with me?? hehe.. at first i tot there is but now, i don't think so. i think its clearer now that i am not ready to commit and be in another relationship. my 'refusal' has got nothing to do with being homo, ohkay! hahahaha! yeah, anw, its suppose to 'brighten up' my life, but my life's bright enough now and much much better without a guy sticking around me. hehe.. its a chore to be caring for another person and being emotionally affected by things that dun matter. i dun hurt others and dun get hurt as well. and thinking abt my future, it doesn't seem like there's much room to fit a guy in yet.. unless there's really a guy out there who's worth my time and love.. i'm still young.. why think of all this.. hehe.. anw, it seems like there r not many good guys existing out there.. hehe..

tie no dead knot around the heart..

don't starve or stuff

2009-04-02T00:50:00.006+08:00

today's like the ultimate compared to yesterday. but its fun, of course. the day started by waking up early just to watch MERLIN. and then off to SMPS. my brain was just not working and i was like a zombie coz i didnt hav enuff sleeep n im down with sore throat, which makes me feel dehydrated, and also flu. so i dun really care abt the time like i usually did and ended up reaching far too early to meet up with dina at little india station. lesson was better than expected, i guess. alhamdulillah. i was kinda worried things wont turn out so well but not bad.. hehe..

after which, headed to harbour front and had our dinner and find some stuff. it was annoying to sneeze here and there. decided to buy the pants with dina for a cheaper price and it's a good deal! coz its damn comfy.. hehe.. journey back to serangoon from harbour front is cute, i must say. altho embarrasing, its kind of fun moving forward and back in unison. hehe.. dina should understand.. hehe..

her fering is a natural.. hehe..
so it's ok dina.. :)

we love this photo loads! M.

she told me nt to upload diz.. but i think its nice.. hehe.. ;p

and.. this is our 'wedding photo'.. lol!

yogilates is full of stretching. and exhaling and inhaling is suddenly a confusing thing to do. lol. it was relaxing thou.. rather than go for yogilates why not just go for pilates?? pilates sounds more fun. hehe.. and then, back to serangoon to head home. but i ended up making a detour to arab st. to meet my parents coz 190 is bloody pack with human of all kind of sizes and stuff, that i can't be bothered to squeeze in. so ya.. it was bad enuff squeezing into bus 70 dat evening. n it was embarrassing enuff carrying a big bag and standing in front of a gorgeous guy with long legs sitting in front of u.. and whenever ppl wanna pass that small walkway in the bus, u have to lean towards him and be in an awkward position between his long legs and kept hitting him. it happened not once but like 3 times.. super weird feeling.. hehe.. so ya, had enuff of squeezing and all in public transports. wads more, an extra dosage of panadols made me drowsy and i fil like puking, so its best to avoid the bus, especially full ones. hehe..

ohkay, my food should have gone thru half of the digestion required, so i shall go get my mum's cooking in the refrigerator, as told, and then off to bed.. :) had a long day.. hehe.. but im so looking forward to tomorrow.. coz.. i dunno wads my plan for it. hehe.. lala land here i come~!

sick,
is the last that i wann..

flip thru the books and papers, girl

2009-03-30T11:15:00.004+08:00

finally. a day to rest and spend some time to read. hopefully. hehe. thursday, i bought books (how weird) while waiting for my aunt to end her treatment for 3 damn hours. spent more than an hour in popular finding books. i think that's crazy. done with reading one of it. a very addictive book, i must say. and i shall finish up reading 'new moon' soon. there's just this part which makes me stop reading it for a while. and i shall take the time to upload photos from the past 2 weeks..

friday, had a date with asnira. lol. its fun to chat with her after soo long of not meeting her! we watched 'hotel for dogs'. wads with me and dogs?? the last movie i watched also had a dog in it, bolt. its worth watching, i guess. coz there's cute guy and boy and dogs. hehe.. but i was wondering, is it that boring?? coz in the midst of it, there's someone snoring la, can?? god, it was soo loud! and and, at first the theatre seems to belong to only the two of us (felt like we r GJP and YJH!) when later on, a few more peeps started strolling in much later. & & thanks asnira for the stickers! precious!

her 'peace' looks wrong. lol.

and yesterday, followed dina for a kendarat at tampines. :)

just as im expecting a free day, i just remembered. i needa teach aidin tuition. sighs. lazy lazy. no. its more like im tired. and needa do lesson plan for tomorrow and wednesday. oh wells. is all this weariness making me lose weight a kg by a kg?? i have been losing weight for quite a bit recently. maybe coz im tired or coz of my eating disorder - kay, im not bulimic or aneroxic but just, having a very bad eating habit i guess.. im growing skinnier. my arms are smaller, esp in photos, and weaker too! when i carry things, the things just shake and look like they're gonna topple any time and i look like i have some parkinson's disease bt of course, i dun. lol.

ohkay, dats abt all. :)

so much to look forward to in MAY.

this is the part i hate

2009-03-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

this is super bad. as much as i love wearing heels, the blisters still appear. oh how i wish i can be barefooted in the auditorium just now. it's so sick! its already bad enough with the blisters, its feeling worse with the mozzie bites that im getting now.. great how great! dammit! im so gonna kill the big fat mozzie if i could.

today's session is kinda relaxing coz khalis took the whole bunch of 90 pupils for lesson and dina and i were just hanging around. and so, next week will be our turn. hope i could deliver a great class like khalis did. :) and, im really cracking my brain how to improve lessons with my primary 3 kiddos. after lesson, we were driven to bugis and we were so hungry that dina and i got ourselves nasi lemak for lun-ner? ya.. and great! my mum cooks nasi lemak too! haha.. i have to eat hers coz its totally different from the one sold out there.. hehe..

recently, or like 3 months back to be exact, i've become a football freak i think. kay, more like die hard liverpool fan. hahaha! (k la, im not that bad la) but im so gonna wait for CJY to call me up for some reason. lol. nevertheless, im suddenly super looking forward to the soccer match meet-up with ain and dina.. ahh!! cant wait for ain to have her holidays and then we can meet up and have some fun tgt.. watching soccer with her is damn kecoh la.. miss those days seriously. hehe.. and dina, i have to admit la actually, the only reason i bought new paper is coz of the sports section. hahaha!! but really, i will try my best to read most of the news in there ohkie?? hehe.. but please.. no straits times!! hehehe.. and, funny thing, my dad even buy for me the football weekly can?? he even asked me, where's ur gerrard poster? why is it not up in ur room? go and hang laaa... hehehe.. he's cute, like for once! he let me hang things around! this so reminds me of FIFA World Cup in 2002. PSLE year and i was happily football-ing.. hehehe..

anihoos. my mum had helped me out last week i think, with my bookshelf. as in clean it up for me. and now, its still as good as before. hehe.. but i just have the urge of clearing up some stuff to make way for new things.. hehehe.. and so, tomorrow, i shall make an effort to clean up my room before i go JB. hahaha.. im wondering now.. what's there to really clean up?? hmmm..

&& my dad's funny!! kay, we hav a habit of kissing my mum before gg out, and just now, he made us kiss him when he got home!! he must have been jealous all this while!! hahaha!! funny funny... kissing my dad everyday, i find it funny and 'thorny'.. hehe.. the best i could say is alot of BYESSS to him.. even b4 i go to bed.. but to kiss?? hehehe.. kayy.. i'll try to.. i mean, i dun even noe when will be the next time i could.. hehe.. so yeah.. i'll just pretend it's hari raya everyday.. LOL! why is it so weird for me??? its even more harder than trying to avoid speaking singlish in front of both my parents! gosh!

& i realise stereotyping is bad and making judgement about people whom im not close to is also kinda bad. no one needs to noe how exactly i feel and what im thinking. but all i wanna do now is limit as much as i could from doing all that. i mean, we, as a third party, never know what that person's life is like and how hard is it to get that far and all. but then again, as human, its hard to avoid all this from happening especially when u have that 'black' element in you. why must human do things which they hate? i dun understand myself, why must i be in that bad category.. tsk tsk tsk..

anihoos, photos are otw in multiply. too big and too many and too time consuming. so sorry to all that's waiting...

simfoni budaya

2009-03-24T20:44:00.008+08:00

GPA was over last saturday. preparations was a killer, for us dancers. it was hard to get everyone down and i almost gave up on everything. it was kinda frustrating and it was not easy to come up with the choreography. it was quite worrying at first. but thank god, everything went on well on saturday. nevertheless, i felt really sorry for the J1 dancers and all that were involved in gpa. coz its their only holiday that week and they had to spend hours everyday in school just for this event. some were complaining and all but i hope along the way they did have fun and the memory is etched in their mind. :) marvelous people, i must say. the costumes, didnt turn out like what's expected but i believe everyone look good. and the boys are really cute with their samping and all. hahaha! it was enjoyable definitely. and, the best part is to make up for our mistakes on stage, we actually did an encore dance to make ourselves feel better. haha.. surprisingly, some audience stayed behind and watched us. haha..

the supposedly 'random' photo. lol.

this is for dina, to make up for the missing dinner photo of hers. hehe..

everything right till the end went on well. and all the effort paid off la. my regrets was no longer there. thinking of some things, i felt a little regret being there but heck that feeling. im glad im a part of it. haha.. everyone was like zombies that sat morning, and i was so tired also. but at least meeting syakirah early in the morning at pasir ris interchange made me feel a little better and much better when dina and ain came to school! hehe. classic friend. or shud i say punah-ranah friend. haha! that's wad ain called me. and dina! she attempted to make me roti prata and she did! but, it turned into kueh-kueh coz her mum insisted she bring me kuehs.. hehehe.. tak dapat rase instant prata dina eh.. hehehehe.. and really thank u for the breakfast or i'll starve! hehe.. and ain, really thankful to her for helping syakirah and i for the make up. we took so long la to siap. haha.. but it was super kecoh la, with the eye shadow issue. lol. but it was super nice. i like my make up. hehehe.. and thank u to dina for being the photographer of the day! :)

and then, dinner at junc 8 with ain, dina, farhanah, syakirah, zul, haziq and iliyas. :) it was kecoh but fun. hehe.. trying to take group photo was hard. hehe.. sampai terpotong-potong muke orang.. haha! it was fun la to get together aft so long and aft some alr go for ns and others busy with school and all.

it was surprising that ain and farhanah fell for my trick abt dina nt coming along. k, its dina's idea ok.. hehe.. it was funny la, when i called dina the first time, i was pretending to talk to my sis abt reaching chalet late but it was actually dina on the phone and i was actually asking her of her where-about and ain was beside me, repeating my line.. haha.. lepas tu, ha, amik kau. thank god i called dina on time. the bus came and all of them ran for the bus, thanx to haziq, and i was still lagging behind shouting dun run! and they ignored me. and with the phone in hand, "lari dina! lari! kejar bus! cepat2!!" and this dina, ran across the road so fast but not towards the queue but the TONG SAMPAH???!! pelik jugak tengok. hahaha! it was funny how ain alr told me "asal tak pujok, dina..." and then dina came. haha.. if dina hadn't come, i dun think it will be as fun. hehe.. and me and syakirah kept taking photos till ain made a comment "stop it seh korang." haha! thanx to iliyas though. haha!

so, aft dinner, end to end bus ride with syakirah again to pasir ris. hehe.. for once, i successfully go home with syakirah!! hehe.. selalu kene reject. hehe.. so ya, sat was a great day. once i reach chalet after spending time outside for a while, i fell asleep. that's how tired i was. i didnt even bother to wake up when my parents came. haha..

alrites. that's abt all.
//the rest of the photos will be up in my multiply, of course.

//and some editing will be done to the previous entry.

bumble bee

2009-03-22T10:04:00.003+08:00

im rarely home and even more rarely sitting in front of this computer. and so, surprisingly, i can wake up early today and here i am, finally blogging. have been out most of the time. the only time im at home is at night.

sunday already occupied my whole afternoon till early morning at changi village, to 'work'. and monday, went back to school for the last part of the dance. and tuesday, met syakirah at geylang to look out for stuff.

wednesday, was a fun day. nana was on leave and at the same time, my aunts had plans to go to the bird park. and so, asked me along. my mum cooked for us and i was persuading nana to tag along.. before that, she brought me to pasir panjang for breakfast and i saw a friend of mine, whom nana was really keen of. and that's kinda funny. hehe.. and i was shocked he actually talked to me. and then we headed to NUS and then to NUH, to visit her friend. and i got myself a DAISY. hehe. bird park trip was a big kecoh. but nana and i left first coz she already had plans. and picked up our parents and then, went to kampong jawa. gave them a lil treat at sarbat and then walked around and that's abt it.

and thursday, followed my aunts to JB. instead of following the other two and children by train, i decided to take the car with mokde. coz i cant be bothered to look at the faces of some of my annoying cousins and hearing all the whiny irritating voices too. its nt all of them but its just one la. ohkay. so ya.. haha.. and i met stranger, again!! hehe.. so much for the excitement la..

friday, met dina and farhanah at bugis to buy some stuff. it was fun. its like the first time i think we actually really go out together, now that i think of it. hehe. and then met nana and a.a to azi's birthday chalet.

and saturday, it was GPA. ohkay, this i will update in another entry.

anihoos, photos will be up by tuesday night. soo sorry.. :) gtg, some people seem to be unhappy having to do the chores at home while everyone else it out except for me and her. ya, this is sick. dammit. why must everyone except the two of us on a sunday morning??? and maybe, she has something against me, perhaps, for going to the chalet and sleeping over. oh wells. crap. i better do something.. and not just sit in my room.

//more photos in multiply soon.

aatisshooo~!

2009-03-15T00:07:00.003+08:00

"i'm so exhausted that i dun care abt my surroundings and ended up banging into the cupboard door when i sneezed."

im so tired! went to nyjc for technical dry run. dance is still unfinished. hopefully, with the committed dancers, things could be done well enuff by thursday's rehearsal. costume not settled also. and positioning is lousy. haha. but is ok. :) we'll deal with it.

and aft that rushed to arab st. for my arab exam. oh god. i didn't even manage to get a wink or some food but thank god, my sis packed some for me from home. or else, my stomach would be growling like nobody's business during the 2 hours exam la. it was ohkay la. but honestly, i pity the teacher for having to mark a whole chunk of crap. haha! and my compo. its like a primary one kid compo on 'family'! hahaha!

and aft which, went to still rd for some kursus with my sis and all, met my parents and went for supper and ended up missing the liverpool - man u game. but is ok, thanx to my 'commentator' i get some updates and YEAYYY LIVERPOOL!!! hehe. shall catch the monday game since im gonna be busy tomorrow.. oh wells. shall sleep now. have been overworking myself for a while. already went home at midnight yesterday and today, another long day also..

"i'm in love, i'm in love, accidentally~! haha!
stranger's a nobody and is seriously unknown,
but i'm already missing stranger.
stranger, stranger, seeya real soon.." :)

who cares what he thinks,
for i know what i feel.

hi stranger.

2009-03-14T00:46:00.003+08:00

"im in love with a stranger.
and he's the sweetest drug ever."

heyya back.

eebabo

2009-03-10T23:46:00.003+08:00

being able to help out for gpa is kinda fun although tiring. and i met mdm sha today, by chance, and got some advice from her. :) going back to nyjc is fun thing but i dun understand why some ppl just have a problem with it and the fact that im helping my peers out for their dance. as in, im out of school alr and why i bother.. oh, just a reminder, its my own choice, so let me be. :) at least, it keeps my mind off certain things. and its not like as if i got things to do at home anw..

and one thing, its annoying to be talking abt ppl you dun like and i shall stop myself from annoying myself with all the stupid crap that doesnt matter in my life. and so, im just gonna live my life and only care abt ppl that matters.

new kins are better than old ones??

answer my prayers, please

2009-03-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

really, what's my fate gonna be like tomr. all the best to all dear ones. :)

im trying hard to put my mind away from it. and again, to jb just now. to accompany my aunt for some treatment. so yeah. get to see gepeng and it was enuff to shift my thoughts away. :) fira came along and it was much better than waiting there alone for three hours. thank god. and she's damn funny that i laughed super alot today. it was so funny when two immigration officers mistaken me for her in the passport. coz it was my p3 photo and the officer thought im her. i think that will be the only one mistake coz im gonna use my new passport next week on! weee!! hehe..

my mind is in a whirl right now. shan't blog much.. coz im friggin worried abt tomorrow! good night. :)

can't stand it.

2009-03-03T11:11:00.002+08:00

suddenly, i feel like i have soo many things to talk abt and to rant about. but to blog it, i really got no time now. have to get dressed up alr to go to SMPS for their malay convo lessons. thank god, im meeting dina later! can at least talk to her. awesome-ness. :)

human beings.
can u understand all?
not at all.

on the loose

2009-02-25T23:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my first time teaching a primary school (SMPS) and it was my first assignment too. yippee!! all thanx to dina dino.. lol. it was a great experience and i have a wonderful class. and of course, a bubbly one. haha. after which, i met wirdah at bedok and made our way to tampines swimming complex although it was still drizzling. haha. back to our childhood hometown. it was awesome! after soo long, im finally out, exercising. haha. and it was refreshing. :) after which went for dinner and had a long journey home..

just now, i met PUTERI at orchard and just hang out together for a while. from town to marina sq and just spend the time tgt, waiting for the right time to leave for and make our way back in time for her dance training. but since it was cancelled at the last minute, she came over to my place and only went back like at almost 10. hehe. love her loads. really miss those times she always come over and we studied together. and i realised, its her first time her aft the renovation. hehe.

im in deep pain. im not too sure whats wrong but its something not good gg on with the organs in my stomach area. gosh. i hope i'll feel better after supper or a short nap. :)

idolizing is insane.

bygones be bygones..

2009-02-24T00:13:00.002+08:00

yoha! after being extra dead for the 2nd half of last week, with just lazing around in my room watching 'wonderful life' and stuff and being emotionally affected by people around me (although i dun go out), and finally, i got a grip of myself and things are much better now. alhamdulillah. :) so away with the ugly week previously..

started the week with no monday blues. haha. woke up earlier than usual coz i have plans today to go JB with my aunt. lol. after soo long nt entering JB, im like a frequent visitor now since im not working anw. haha. wads there in JB? free food, free clothes, free everything! haha! i dun even need to spend a single cent. and what's more, i get cash too!! haha! how awesome is that?? i'm lovin it truckloads. alhamdulillah. and today feels like payday! hehe.. so ya, went to take passport photo and then off to queens st to meet my aunt and i only reached home an hour ago.

what's more awesome was, i got a call from edn finally. all thanks to dina! and now, i finally have an assignment!! hoohoo!! and it starts tomr! im excited but nervous too! soo.. again, have to wake up pretty early tomr so that i wont be late. :) but im still up right now coz im waiting for two dramas to start. lol. i must be crazy. but i'll manage. :)

aahh.. after soo long staying at home, i feel like this week, there's a lot of things im gonna do and i will hardly be at home. awesome :)

goodnight!

i'm gonna be a better person. :)

step out

2009-02-15T10:24:00.004+08:00

i have been gg out quite alot this week compared to the previous. like last wednesday, i was really gambling whether to follow my aunt to jb or meet up my friends at nyjc for a game of touch during their cca bazaar. which, i decided to stick with the latter since i already told xiao wei i would be gg down. :) it rained halfway sadly.. so i only get to play for a short while.. running up and down the dry field is very tiring and painful for me now.. haha.. but i had fun.. get to meet some teachers, my fellow ruggers and friends! ended the day by gg to town with xiao wei and zhi yang for dinner, bought 'new moon' (sequel to twilight) and followed xiao wei to heeren to buy gifts for her frens.. my legs were killing me. aching all the way.. how lousy is that. hehe.. and i hav a new rugger thinking that i am a teacher that came down to play touch with them.. hehe..

and on thursday, i had a chance to follow my aunts to JB. hehe.. i didn't get to do what i wanna do so badly but is ok, it was enjoyable following these aunts of mine shopping for their daily stuff.. hehe.. unlike the previous trip, my aunt drove her car. :) and when i get back, there's no one at home. and so, i followed my aunt to bangkit to send some stuff over and i made my way back by lrt. haha.. how dumb is that.. k, nt really dumb, but i was bored. hehe..

and yesterday, it was v'day (like it matters at all to me). there's soo many people carrying bouquets of flowers or to be precise, roses. i met dina and diy at city hall for brunch and walked around and i saw this DP top which i really like. did not buy it so we made our way to suntec for the ntu seminar. met alot of people there. like zul, iliyas and HAZIQ!!! hahaha! he's hiding his baldy head in a cap! haha! it was soo funny when he told us wad happened to him when he didnt cut his hair or something. we were laughing our ass off.. hehe.. also saw boulder and frens and alot more people.. and hu yang! she gave us gifts. hehe.. thankiu hu yang!!! it was really sweet of u.. hehe.. and diy left before we go for our last talk. after which zul, iliyas, haziq and me make our way to bugis. them for dinner and me, for lesson and i was obviously late already. hehe.. and after lesson, i saw hamzah.. i think i gave him a shock tapping his back out of nowhere. hehe.. and then bought some food at bugis junction, is it the chewy thingy.. i dunno la.. yaa, and i cannot resist myself from buying the top so went to bugis DP. i intend to get the blue one but i ended up buying the green. hehe.. oh wells..

ohh, and i must say this. my mrt ride home is horrible! these two china ppl were really suffocating me, whose at the corner by the seats. oh god.. i'm like trapped in a box liddat with their hands restricting my movements. and the mid-age lady was soo gross, acting sexy and stuff. i just stare at her.. disgusting.. and when we change mrt at JE, there's this young couple, the girl with a rose and she's acting all oh-big-deal i have a rose and acting all cute. the guy alighted at gombak and that girl and her friend alighted at cck with us. oh god, they are two vain pots! like the world is ours and we dont care abt others.. and i was sitting facing them and was telling my sis how gross they are (i shall not say what exactly), with the way they dress up and look.. and i think her fren saw us looking at them and laughing thru the reflection and she turned around. i just look, smile and laugh.. and i think she was feeling uncomfortable. hehe.. and i told my sis, i wanna shout something at them when we pass by them. haha.. and she told me to get out of the mrt by another door, not the one they were at. haha.. but when i get out, they were heading for the lift and i just shout FUGLY!! hahaha! even my bro in-law laughed. hehe..

keeping my options open..

twilight

2009-02-09T14:13:00.002+08:00

reading twilight is much much more interesting than watching it. when watching it without reading it beforehand, i was like oh okay, i get the point, they're in love and are together and he's there to protect her. and i mostly enjoyed looking at mike and eric and carlisle and a bit of edward, and amazed by him bringing her for a ride and stuff, but reading it, i finally understand more. much more as to why certain things happen. haha. what's amazing is that, in the movie, the vampire family actually attempted to cook. hehe..

anihoos, yesterday was kinda tiring for me but i slept at 3am. in the morning, had to wake up and teach aidin simple arabic. honestly, teaching a pre-school kid is not easy and is not that interesting coz they honestly know nothing but only colouring. hehe.. thought him how to say cat in arabic and it was cute. hehe.. and then helped bake some brownies with my sis. she's so nt listening to me when i told her to lessen the cocoa (and cocoa stinks!!). the color was kinda dark and not brown and i dun like it, but ok laaa.. we still like it. hehe..

and instead of nana conducting tuition for the cousins of mine, i ended up teaching one of them geography, which she took years to finish, and helped another with his compo. i realised, secondary school life is hectic.

envious.

scripted

2009-02-07T11:02:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wish life is scripted just like in dramas, where most of the time, things goes well no matter what for the protagonists.

written destiny.

gorgeousness

2009-02-05T03:17:00.002+08:00

im so hungry right now. but look at the time, its crazy if i were to eat right now. but then, i dun wanna starve myself till 6am before i get my sleep. u must be wondering why im up at this wee hour.. apart from being insomniac, im still up coz im waiting for the liverpool-everton game (fa cup). haha. why am i doing this? coz i am a true fan! hahaha! ya rite.. looking forward to a really awesome game. :) afterall im in a cheery mood after a great day out with my aunts to JB. apparently im not the only one awake at this moment, there are some jackass downstairs making hell lot of noise and i feel like killing them for nuts!! i dun understand why all this disgusting toads have to spend their bloody damn time outside. dont they have homes??? sometimes, its just soo annoying that i feel like shouting to those bloody bastards "~~FUCK OFF!!!~~ FOR GOODNESS, SHUDDUP!!!" they are one bloody reason that makes me lose my sleep.

its been quite some time ever since i went abroad. but i had fun. its a total new experience. hahaha.. quite a few funny and embarrassing moments but im glad i did follow my aunts. i shall not elaborate here, coz another post on my JB trip will be posted in lj tomr. nevertheless, i just wanna say, i cant wait to change my passport and i saw a TORRES look-alike!! he's uber gorgeous. haha. he only looks like torres from far. and fyi, he's not a mat jo. hahaha! k, how he's noticed, it was very funny. hahaha.. *melts*

went to mph, and im all excited abt some books. all of a sudden. me and books?? whats up with me. hehehe.. nevertheless, i've been trying to pick up my reading habit again recently after like 5-6 years of kicking it away. hehe.. and ya, might be a little slow, but im reading twilight. haha.. when the movie came out, some of my frens were actually story-telling about it to me coz its expected that i dont and wont read it. but amazingly i am! and im kinda addicted to it. it works for my imagination. hehe.. and im only a quarter way, but im soo in love with EDWARD CULLEN!! awwww... *melts melts*

kay, this is crazy. im staying up till early morning and i hope i can wake up for tomorrow's plan. kae, a few more minutes to the match.

fluffy clouds...

liverpoolVSchelsea

2009-02-03T13:46:00.002+08:00

i managed to catch the liverpool vs chelsea game on sunday night and again, yesterday night (replay). it was an interesting game, since there's quite some moves which awed me. all the sandwiching and stuff. k, im not a guy so i dun really think i should comment much. but i just love the goals made by torres! hehe.. he made a slide after the first goal and nicely sat on his bum at the corner of the field with his arms folded and the other Reds just went over to him and group hug him. it was uber cute! hehehe.. and and, we had a great laugh looking at bosinghwa (i dun realli know how the spelling goes) kicking benayoun and he ended up 'kissing' the flag. hahaha! it was hilarious. hehehe.. lampard being sent off the field was really shocking. anihoos, the ending was abit off and frustrating for chelsea but yey to liverpool! hehehe..

k, i've nothing much to say i suppose, for now. and so, i shall give it a rest here. :)

i need SLEEEPP..

2009-02-01T10:47:00.004+08:00

having just 3 hr of sleep is horrendous! its making me look so sick. have been having insomnia lately. i tot i knew the reason why. apparently not. ended up sleeping at 5.30am and had to wake up at 8.30am. sickening. last night, i was super thankful there's no china women and men downstairs for once! there are soo freaking irritating!! talking like as if their frens are miles away, in fact they are shouting around with that china-ish slang. and playing loud music and all. damn noisy. and i feel like shouting to those bastards to shut up. its been like a week its been gg on. thanks to their crap, i, who intend to sleep early recently, could not do so! and i have dark rings just beneath my eyes and now, eye bags too!

so this person not being able to get some sleep, watch abit of iljimae and then disc 7 and 8 of goong. it was so touching and saddening that i cried! i think i cried soo much more watching these two discs compared to being hurt by a boyfriend or getting scolded.. hehe.. thank god, i know what to do after crying and when i wake up, my eyes look fine except that its painful and im sleepy. hehe.. where is this little pre-school boy...

he is the reason i had to wake up early. conducting an arabic lesson for aidin is kinda making me nervous.. i even dreamt of it! i hope its gonna be fine later.. i dun even noe what its gonna be like teaching alif baa ta to a little boy who cant even speak properly! hehe.. so interesting but so nerve-wrecking! hehe.. please hurry up.. hehe.. although im super sleepy, im actually looking forward to after-tuition time. going woodlands to accompany nana and fira for haircut! hehe..

oh, have anyone ever tried watching cartoons in arabic language before??? try it if u can. not only u have to try to pick out what the characters are saying fast. yesterday, during arabic class, we had a chance to do so. for a cartoon lover like me, i actually got bored!!! hehehe.. i was like half dead already.. hehe.. or maybe, coz im just worn out by the 1hr plus quiz before the cartoon. hehe. it was kinda weird but its worth the try. hehe..

no association with the 4 letter words.

lalalaaa..

2009-01-29T21:42:00.003+08:00

i have been staying home for quite some time. but not really just rotting, i did alot of stuff. including zonking the pc out. haha.

y'day, met up with xiao wei outside school and head off to t3, airport. makan at popeye's. hehe. love the biscuit but stupid girl at the counter was soo stingy with the jam! idiotic fool!!! anihoos, ya.. yesterday was fun la. although kinda short, i must say. will upload the photos tomorrow. :)

after which i went to my aunt's place before meeting the others for dinner at bilal restaurant. and it was super late dinner. it's like almost supper. i tell u, i ate till i feel like puking. its not like i ate alot but i gulped down too much drink i guess. hehe. thank god, im feeling fine now. i was having a hard time in the morning. it feels good to go out together as one big family (maternal). it was so kecoh and noisy. it has been years ever since we did this. thanx to mamu for the treat. it cost him a bomb! it was alot of food. but its not just the food that was good and all, its the thought of it and the great time we had together that really makes dinner enjoyable. :)

learn to let go..

p.s. my entries are getting shorter and shorter. soon, it might be gone.

accomplished.

2009-01-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

i dunno wads up with me today but i was extra hardworking. hehehe.. ohkay, not realli since im still struggling studying for the quiz im sitting for tomr. soo much to study!! omg. ohkk.. put that aside.

i have been writing in here and everywhere else to clean up my room and stuff.. guess what.. i really did it today!! hehehe.. now, im soo much happier looking at my room!! totally shifted the bed and there's soo much space for me to lie down on the floor! hehehe.. soo happy!! thanx to my kind and helpful mum for her strength and help. hehehe..

apart from all the dirty work (oh! i realised my mum took care of the unwanted stuff alr for me!!) i manage to get out of the house after straight 3 to 4 days staying at home! hehe.. went to lot 1 to meet up with puteri and ismail.. am i sooo glad to meet them again. hehe.. everytime we meet it will be ljs and me buying cds. hehehe.. and in late afternoon went there again with nana and azam.. hehe.. why am i super happy??? coz i get to borong dvds i had always wanted to!! hehehe.. awesome.. next week, im planning to just watch all these videos! in fact, i dont care abt my quiz, im gonna watch tonight! hehehe..

and ya, i finally swob the PCs again. due to some internal problems, my real intention of coming online to chat with my much-missed frens cant happen so i end up here blogging. hehe. damn. im hoping that i realli noe how to fix this computer's problem. oh wells..

today's a great day. everyone's happy and im extra happy! :)

please work!

dinner&laughter

2009-01-20T11:50:00.003+08:00

yesterday, went out with asnira, dina and farhanah. met asnira first at cck for some 'project'. lol. and den dina at ps, and farhanah at al-falah entrance. hehe. it was a simple outing with all the simple people but definitely, its simply awesome. hehehe. i had tremendous fun although it's just walking and laughing and eating. hehe.. really spent the time to catch up on stuff and just be happy. oh! and the dinner, it looks little, but i was super bloated. thanx to the sweet bandung, more ice water had to be added and more liquid in my stomach and i felt like puking aft the bumpy ride in 190. hehehe. and not to forget, farhanah's butt-grace!! she actually swing her hand and hit an old man's butt just outside sakura!!! hahahaha!!! funny funny!!! even the apek dunno wanna b angry or laugh. hehehe..

i brought changmin out. lol.

at bk, while wasting time. hehehe.

while waiting for azan maghrib.. haha! tak senonoh betol!!

while waiting for the food to come..
asnira's shoulders are the best to sleep on! really!!
i love sitting beside her.. hehehe..

and us, before heading home. :)

it feels great to meet up with the girls. and im hoping we would meet up more often. :)

oh ya, the other day when i went back to nyjc openhouse met with some of the og36 members and ogls. i missed the outing to sentosa for some reasons so i met them in sch instead. they actually gave us ogls gifts. it was simple but definitely meaningful. :)

to og36,
im really sorry for not attending much of the outings although i wish i could. perhaps next time ok? im really really sorry.. i feel bad but i cannot help it.. and thank u soo much for the sketchbook and the fan (i love it, so cute!)! the photos and messages are really meaningful and it just keeps the great memories i had with u guys etched in my mind. i will never forget u all and hopefully u guys don't forget me too!! thank you soo much for being part of me and everything. i really appreciate u guys for all the love and funtimes! keep in touch ohkies! u guys are lovely. im gonna miss you all alot! and good luck for ur A's! :)

GEE~!

please, come true.

2009-01-18T20:18:00.007+08:00

been having some great times that i got not much energy and time to blog. had been having soo much fun for the past 2 weeks. erm, met puteri at nyp open house (i miss her so much!), went to rp open house with my cousins, went to nyjc open house to meet xiao wei and went to town with her (i miss her also!) and did some wonderful things last week. im missing it already.. i wish it could be longer. oh wells, one week of experience has been great. and the hair. makes me un-recognizable. lol. :)

y'dae, should have attended our arabic lesson but we were kinda late. so the 3 of us skipped lesson and went to raffles and to marina sq instead before meeting my bro in-law family for dinner. so yeah, dats suppose to be a secret. abt us skipping class. hah. what the.. so ya..

im in lazy mode. so sorry. will update more next tym..

im a bummer.
forever.

blossoms

2009-01-04T22:39:00.003+08:00

firstly, happy new year to everyone! may 2009 be much better than 2008 for all of you. leave the bad behind but bring along with u the great memories. there's definitely a lot etched to 2008 for me personally.. :)

anihoos, have been staying up super late this few nights. and tonight gonna do so too. gosh, been making myself soo busy recently.. its like the last few weeks of slacking before work starts. lol. was watching the FA cup yesterday, liverpool vs preston north end.. the game was super 'agitating' coz there's a lot of chances for goals for liverpool but it just don't happen. but thank god, reira scored and then torres did too! lol. nice shots. love the second one, made my torres during the added time. a run made by gerrard and then a cross with torres n then, right smack in front of the goal post, sent the ball out to torres and GOAAALLL!!! hehe. awesomeness! great feeding by gerrard all the time. poor alonso, got injury.. woohoo!! didnt waste my effort of staying up late. k la, i did sleep for awhile and then woke up again. hehe. i didnt regret it! hehe.. let's hope liverpool will do exceptionally well today.. :)

last friday went to school to teach dance. i think i danced more than the dancers. i dun really like the idea of having to wake up early and go all the way down to serangoon but have to, especially tomorrow.. hmmmm.. hopefully, i can reach there earlier.. not only my sleep gone, even my ezlink card money will like go boom faster than ever.. ya, adult fare sucks. haha.. bt nvm.. :)
ya, haziq was there and then, he asked who wanna watch yes man n me and syakirah agreed to it.. and guess what, he treated us!! lol. that's coz we threatened him not to go.. lol. how nice of him.. thanx haziq! and yes man, is quite sensible considering its jim carrey.. its funny and nice.. :)

ohkay.. not really in a mood to blog and give a whole detail of my weekends and stuff, except that i spent my saturday in baju kurung all day long.. which feels odd bt its okayy.. bt not really, coz of some guys saying some stuff, which i dint hear.. so ya, i'll give it a stop here. take care peepos.

2009, i shall change.

oh-se7en-thuh-ree-too BBQ

2008-12-28T14:37:00.007+08:00

my dad's back from his long haj trip. things are almost back to normal. the aromatic smell is back. lol. had a small kenduri at home on thursday. it was fun having my aunts and cousins around. :)

he has been trying to fit in the bears in the car for nuts.

aidin konyol playing sonic on psp.

friday, had class bbq at pasir ris park. not everyone attended but is ok coz it was a fun gathering. :) left earlier than the others coz i wanna be home on time to catch the liverpool vs bolton match. haha. that reminds me, tonight must watch! liverpool vs newcastle. haha. staying home for quite a while have made me a tivo freak again. haha. so ya, back to bbq, hehe. it feels super great to meet up the rest of my frens. at first i didnt wanna go coz asnira wasnt there, bt i went coz i told lester i would and ya, hehe. coz we were earlier than the rest, as in, me and lester, he took quite a few shots of me. lol. overall, i had fun and im sorry i left earlier. hehe. thanks to hong siew i left slightly later than i planned. hehe. and thanks to her n tsu hui too for walking me out. haha. seeing my frens getting high over drinks makes me laugh. and and, i saw a cute boy. haha. green shirt. lol. saw him at the interchange and took the same bus, and surprisingly, he's having a bbq next to our pit. haha.

the heart-shaped charcoal. cool ah. haha.

this crispy durian pancake is damn nice!
sorry, cant remb wad its called. lol!

aft fetching jia hao and mao from bustop.

class photo!

and yesterday, i was suppose to go for training for this volunteer work. but coz, nana signed up a language lesson for me, i wont be able to make it through out the training for all three weeks. and i've decided to drop out of it. coz, its quite troublesome on my part. im so sorry, dina. ps her. but i noe she'll understand. and so, my saturday afternoons will be occupied for the next 11 weeks. haha. enjoying myself i guess. although knowing that there will be quizes and exam freaks me out, totally!

and ya, so yesterday before i meet nana and a.a. at arab st for our lesson, i get to meet my fellow frens from kranji. haha. not everyone was there but at least those tt im close with were there. it feels super good to meet them again after so long of losing touch. funny as usual, and 'lintang pukang'. hehe. but it was upsetting to have to leave earlier. bt at least i get to mit them. haha. :)

so ya, wanna go watch some videos or drama. hahaha! i choose to do everything else instead of cleaning up my room. anw, its not like my room looks like a pig sty but wads bothering me is the bookshelf content and the empty small boxes hidden somewhere. haha. but they can wait. :) hehe. yes, im a dweeb. bt at least, today i made an accomplishment! helped my mum cook and did the laundry! lol. my mum seems to be training me to be a matured girl who's capable of doing housework. and i realise, its hard to be a housewife. hehe.

there's no strikes yet in my long list.

its more than just an 8-day trip

2008-12-23T11:56:00.010+08:00

yesterday was a very long and fun day i must say. :)

woke up quite early and head down to kranji sec for some admin stuff. and silly me brought camera with no battery. and so had to make my way home and get my battery and off to dhoby ghaut to meet syakirah, haziq and iliyas.

initially, we wanted to watch 'yes man' with dina and farhanah but persistent haziq wants to watch twilight super very badly and so, we did. he's just lucky that the time slot for twilight is more favourable than of yes man. so yeah. catch the 1230 show so that we could make it in time for the bbq. a short review of twilight: not so bad la. enjoyed it. the guys are cute and stuff. its likable basically cos of the cast. hehe. according to some, the books are much better. so i shall try and read the books. hehe. (sha dun read.) previously, had some ppl asking me am i portuguese?? and yesterday, at the ps bustop, haziq just look so freaked out and said this, woah.. ur eyes are like edward cullen's. hehe. funny funny.. and ya, robert pattinson is not bad luhh.. quite hot la. hehe.. jackson rathbone (jasper cullen) and michael welch (mike newton) justin chon (eric yorkie) r cute! hehe. peter facinelli (dr carlisle cullen) looks scary in there but he's just gorgeous.. lol.

and then went to ts to buy hana yori dango (movie). its not that i wanna buy it. but i got addicted to hana yori dango ever since i watched the season 1 & 2!! and i could not access to the online one and so had to waste my money on the vcd. but nvm. its nice! shall watch it over and over. haha. again, the cast are gorgeous people, that's why. hehehe. love love love.

love them both! ♥

no, love them all!! haha. ♥ ♥

♥

and after which, we went to east coast park for our "indo trip" gathering. hehe. it was fun luh. had some food, chit chat rubbish, took lots of photos, tried playing hopscotch on the sand, bbq, played soccer in the dark and catch up with one another. :) its soo like in indonesia, but of course, different settings. hehe. cab back with iliyas, haziq and huda. so basically, its a fun day for me. and hopefully for the rest too. its been a while ever since i went for bbq. haha.
here are the photos :)

when sand comes to play.. :)

love the coconut tree.

home sweet home.. :)

oh, oh.. did u guys watch the aff suzuki cup monday night?? it was so heartbreaking!!! but also, dramatic. such a violent game and singapore lost.. sigh.. but it was a great game coz our players are people with true sportsmanship! hehehe. the young lions are the best! ♥ and i also watched the arsenal vs liverpool game. ya, aft soo long not watching soccer. hehe. its a draw.. sadly.. nvm.. liverpool is still number 1. love their grey jersey. hehe. ♥

it's more on..
meaningful friendship :)

sushi mushi & fresh air

2008-12-21T20:51:00.006+08:00

yesterday, had to wake up early in the morning and followed nana & a.a to pasir ris for her briefing. i willingly wake up that early coz... i want to eat sushiii!!!! hehehe.. (of coz got agenda behind it right.. lol)

so ya, went to downtown east. it looks super different now. that shows how long i haven't been there. haha. the cadbury ferris wheel looks cool. haha. anw, ya. went to hei sushi and had a feast! i hav been waiting forever to eat sushi. hehe. after which, walked around and was treated to chocolate fondu! i had cute lil chocolate coated banana and nana had chocolate coated apples. awesome. hehe.

this is all we ate.

my favourite!! hehe.

we happily ate & he had to foot the bill. hehe.

in the evening, went to admiralty to meet lester for an rc-organised event on astronomy. awesome. i get to see cute lil clusters of stars thru the telescope and venus! i was shocked to see some mats actually appeared on the field and was really amused by the stars, etc. hehe. it was just amazing looking at all the beautiful wonderful things nature has and im thankful for the fact that i had the opportunity to appreciate it for a while. :) thanx apa!

and just now, went over to my aunt's place with nana and mak for brunch. and then wasted some time there and headed down to east coast park for some fresh air. hehe. and then to eunos for early dinner and back home.

now it's time for some soccer games. lol. seriously, i got nothing to do. and i shud not video tonight coz i have to wake up early tomr and then out for lots of fun!! :)

waiting & waiting..

popeye the sailorman..

2008-12-19T12:08:00.005+08:00

have been keeping myself real occupied this week. and i've come to a verdict. going out every single day is more tiring than going to school everyday. seriously. im feeling every ounce of weariness and can't even wake up early the next day or even fresh! im just looking forward to some rest before i have more fun out there. :)

sunday. was suppose to go to bkt pjg cc for a wedding banquet but i was kinda lazy and so, stayed home and waited for mum and nana to get back and drove off to kampong jawa, to get some kain for hari raya. oh yes, that's very fast. it's like not even 2009 and we r buying raya stuff. crazy. haha. i wasn't all that excited but it was only fun when i get the kain that was realli nice which nana also wanted. haha. too bad, i said it first. hehehe. ok, that's very childish of us. and then, we went to eat and off to bugis junction. im suppose to shop for some stuff but i wasn't really looking forward to it so i passed. anihoos, some ppl just hav to spoil a wonderful day... shan't say more.

monday. i was really really hoping i could stay home and watch tv and videos for all i want. but NO. i had to follow my mum to tan tock seng hospital to visit my uncle and then met up with nana at lot 1 coz she took half day (she's sick) and had lunch and went home. happy happy coz i get to watch drama! hehe. this woman, she's sick but she's damn crazy. spent $18 on a small cake and both of us were eating it at home. hehe. sadly, its not that appetizing.. dotss. hehe..

tuesday, just like the previous thursday, went back to nanyang for dance. dunno what's up with me, i woke up super early and miscalculated the time and left home pretty early and had to trouble dina to come out earlier as well for tau huey breakfast with me. hehe. and ya wasn't dancing. just watching and laughing and planned the bbq. hehe. wanted to meet up wirdah aft that for movie. but she couldn't make it, so i asked syakirah and dina to watch movie with me at bishan. seriously, there's not much choice and we ended up watching.. BOLT! hehe. not bad la.. cute hamster and dog and ya, funny. hehe. bought the cheesy pasta thingy and i dun remember getting alot of pasta, cheese and bacon.. but this time round. WOW! super alot! i had to make dina eat it with me so that i could finish it. hehe. that guy was seriously over generous. hehe. its ok. worth the $7. hehe. just as i was complaining of how expensive n not worth it it was. hehe.

after movies. otw home, my cuzzin gave me a call and asked me along to marina barrage and all. and i agreed. so, met them at city hall and ya, the barrage is nice at night but there's really a lot of couples and stuff. haha. and i ended up spending the night at my aunt's and only went home the next day, aft following her to the market and to the lawyer's firm and then to popeye at t3. haha. had been wanting to eat at popeye like ever since i got back from jakarta. had a feast! the biscuits were yummy! hehe.

and then, yesterday. had to go to airport again but this time to t2. before that, went to t1 for popeye (again! this time with my family. hehe) i tell u, 2 days of chicken at popeye makes me feel soo full and fat! fetch another aunt, back from haj and then went to her house for kenduri. met cousins! hehe. and aft that, had plans to go to hospital to visit my uncles but went to marina square to grab some stuff and head home. thank god, someone's not with us coz she will totally make a mess out of everything.. duh-uh..

and ya, today, i get to rest. tgif. over the weekends, i've got plans till monday. i nid the rest since im feeling soo painful rite now..

toot toooott...

jakarta immersion trip programme

2008-12-09T15:11:00.016+08:00

ohke! finally.. im gonna blog about my jakarta trip with all my friends. where shall i start. hmmm.. lol.

basically, we had tonnes of fun together, yes, i did. the 8 days together with the other 19 students were really meaningful. as in, we get to know each other better and spend good times together. :) shop together.. sleep together.. 'reflection session' together.. getting sick together.. haha.. see, so bonded. haha. without the jakarta trip, i dun think i will even noe these 19 people much. they're a bunch of great people. :) not only that, with the jakarta trip, i get to meet up with the indo buddies, both old and new! it feels great to meet up with them again aft like a year plus, in their own school. and meeting the new ones is also fun, for they really accept us and treat us like one of them. and its not just the buddies, even the students from my buddies' class are fun and nice people. i didn't expect to get to know them that well, but im thankful that we had the opportunity to know each other better. and that, we could actually talk with each other. i had the greatest time of my life. knowing most of them is the best memory i take with me back to singapore, definitely. awesome. :)

kae.. that's an overview of the friendship i made. hehe. now, back to the trip. once we reached the airport, we headed to bandung first, along with lunch somewhere along the way. bandung is super awesome. cooling but the roads are freaking busy and small. the scenery's beautiful. that explains why in my photo album there's alot of scenery pics. haha. in bandung, we went up the tangkupan perahu. its an active volcano and its damn awesome la. singaporeans never see this before and so act like some jakons. haha. it was really really cold up there and ya, we took tonnes of pics up there despite being irritated by all the people selling stuff up there. i tell u, everywhere we go, there are soo many 'buggers' shoving items for sale in our faces. it was really really scary. they will bug u and follow u. unless interested (which i dun even dare to think of), just walk away and save yourself. haha.

and then, we went to the hot spring! we didnt really get to explore the place but we went to this small 'pool' and just soak our feet and stuff. haha. again, singapore dun hav this kinda things, so some of us really tried. hehe. syakirah and i was contemplating but we joined the others in as well. haha. and it started to rain and we all rushed back to the bus and off for dinner..

at the hotel, it seems like we are the only people staying there for the night and yeah, we made hell lot of noise in the hallway and the rooms. haha. thank god, we were not scolded for that. and we girls even had our dance prac at the 'porch'. haha. there were cats chasing around in the rain and it was totally scary. haha. at the end of the day, my room is like a sardin tin. haha. almost half of us were in there. some eating, chatting and some playing cards. haha. nevertheless, in bandung, we missed the chance to go to the wild safari park coz we were abit too late and so we headed off to bogor. they were all shopping like mad, at this shopping paradise and bogor bt syakirah and i shopped for nothing. haha. and some of the guys were saying something like, "are they girls??" lol. of course, we are!

and then, 2nd night, we reached jakarta! :) the next day, went to sman 71 and met our buddies, they really welcomed us and i felt so happy to meet dhea again. not forgetting all the others. attended a 'lecture' which is a sharing session, which was kinda boring but ok la. haha. and attended their lessons. kae, unlike the previous batch, we oni get to attend their lesson for 2hr?? no. lesser than that. and that's very sad.. i get to attend lessons in valdi and dhea's class, for they are in the same class. and they have lovely classmates. their lessons are totally different than in singapore. haha. i oni manage to attend their japanese class. they have alot of subjects to learn but they are all soo relax, its like stress-free. their japanese teacher was trying to be nice and just let them be, and didnt scold them much. they were doing what they want. some of them were happily talking to me. i felt soo scared to talk coz the teacher might just snap. but i did talk to them la. or else, it won't be nice. haha. the class was very warm and welcoming. at first i was afraid to even get in there for they might not like me or something, but it all went on well. thankfully. :) oh, we also attended angklong lessons. haha. nevertheless, on the 1st day in their school, i was always with dhea, coz we already know each other and coz my other buddy, valdi, is always mia and i hardly talk to him. lol.

second day at sman 71 was even more kecoh. we didnt get to go for lessons (boohoo! i was really hoping to attend their english or history or bahasa lesson but no opportunity sadly). early in the morning, there's already futsal and basketball match between nyjcians and the school team. which the boys participated in. and then, there's dance performances and we girls did our dance. haha. it was total crap but good job! haha! imagine, how embarrassing it is to be dancing at the basketball court in front of whole school?? it felt pathetic. haha. but we r just happy it's over. :)

so yaa, spent the night with them, go shopping and stuff. and on wednesday night, the senior students actually asked us along to this photo studio and we took tonnes of pictures. and its their treat tgt with some of our buddies. sweet of them right? and and syakirah, khai, zul, haziq, wan and i actually get ourselves a copy of every pic and as a result, khai and haziq reported at the hotel late. haha. and we also went to a&w! haha. waffles!! milkshakee!! yum yumm..

and on friday, this is when more of us got sick aft all the fun and late night sleep. haha. friday, they went to mangga 2 for a shopping spree. b4 that we actually went to this wayang kulit musuem and that place was formerly a torture chamber. and so yeah. poor syakirah cudnt join the tour coz she was accompanying sick me. i felt soo bad but she insisted. they kept shifting us around. and something funny happened la. haha. anihoos, i tot i wud be fine aft some sleep in the bus and some food and medicine but apparently not. i got more sick and weak. instead of shopping and finishing up my money, i was sleeping at mcd and vomitted and slept again. they went for dinner but i went back to the hotel to rest. it was so bad that i cudn't even walk or stand for long.

valdi and some of his frens went to mangga 2 but didn't have the chance to meet us so they made their way back to orchardz hotel just to meet with us. and who's at the hotel? the sick ones. haha. met them at the lobby and they were all in renee's room. and i cudn't even talk and my eyes were teary and stuff and i just dozed off. i felt so bad. sleeping when there're guests. but it was so sweet of them to come over and meet us. aft they left, orchardz hotel level 8 is no longer like a hotel. its more like a hospital! everyone's visiting here and there. bringing medicine and food for us. haha. i have darren as my doctor aka mama. and fir brought in food. and glenn made me milo. and asnira massaging me and syakirah doing every little things. and the tour guide, glenn and imran lending me their jackets and sweaters coz i was freezing since at mangga 2. and there's a bunch of the others in my room playing cards and watching mission impossible at the other end of the bed. haha. with all their care, i manage to get better the next day, ready to have fun in ancol. :)

saturday, we visited the national monument and the musuem and then, met up with our buddies at ancol. it's like a beach. and we had some ice breakers and gift exchange and play in the rain. haha. their beach is super cool. there's boats and ready pitched up tents. cool huh. haha. and jakon singaporean kids.. like never see trees before. climbing tree aft tree and take pictures. haha. and ya, coz it rained, there was some hoo haa. but at the end of it, orchardz hotel, from being a hospital the night before, is now orchardz market. we made lots of noise at the hallway and this time round its scary coz we might just get scolded by the management. haha. this is when i spent the time with some of the juniors. and im glad i have that chance. some of us were at the hotel with them while some of us were busy shopping at matahari. haha. and valdi and hariyo actually overnight in imran's room and also joined us for karaoke that night. haha. yes, we karaoke! lol. i can never forget haziq's expression when singing staying alive by bee gees and valdi singing and all the others. and ya, khai's 'all i want for christmas is you'. haha. only aft the tour guide left, we got all crazy ending the session at 2.30am (which is 3.30am in singapore) with the song 'please don't stop the music'. haha. all that are sick seems to be no longer sick by then. haha.

and yaaa.. just like the previous year. i cried again.. its just very sad to bid farewell to them, especially to my buddy. and at airport, dhea wasn't there but some of the others were and i cried again. it was embarrassing but the feeling is just there. and b4 heading to the airport, we went to taman anggerik. serious, dunno what to shop. but syakirah and i get ourselves pendants. and then we sat with khai, farhanah and haziq at dunkin and have some donuts before lunch. haha.

so, i left jakarta with great great memories and great friendship to be treasured and cherished forever. :) im hoping tt i cn meet the indonesian students again soon and that, the friendship i had with the nyjcians will remain. i had lots of fun with all of them. oh, i miss all the great fun and great people.

ohkaayys.. that's about it. :) seriously, my mum's gonna kill me. i left the tivo switched on in the living room and im happily blogging in my room. better go back to the living room soon. haha.

and i cudn't possibly upload more pix here. and ya, i accidentally delete one whole folder but fret not, it's all in my multiply (and my corrupted pc. dumb me dint transfer the pix into my hard drive. ergh. bt nvm.) soo, people, for more pictures, please do visit my multiply ohkies.

im proud to say that, i have finally finish uploading all the pictures!! woo hooo!! lol.

P.S. photos are up. but not all captions are filled in. sorry!

i miss them all.
with love.

soo much happened that
cannot be penned down
but certainly be kept
deep down inside as
sweet memories. :)

xoxo.

eidul adha

2008-12-09T13:08:00.006+08:00

yesterday was eidul adha. nothing much to celebrate, coz its not meant to be celebrated extravagantly. bt like evry year, this year, we visited my grandma at my aunt's place and sit around with my cousins and aunties and uncles and everyone else just to catch up and stuff. it was quite a mundane day la, the usual. the only difference this year is eidul adha this year is without my dad coz he's performing pilgrimage. yeah. just praying hard for his safety and health. amiin. he's coming back soon. :)

lastly, photo of the day!

love it lots! :)

anw, on sunday, i thought i would be staying home just to slack around and watch tivo. but then, was ringing my cousin and decided to go over to changi village with him to help out at his dad's food stall. i had fun! haha! all the people and all the kecoh-ness and all the funny funny things that happen. the vjc boys tt cannot make up their mind to buy satay or not.. the irritating uncles.. the impatient nyonyas and apeks.. the funny friends of noriman.. and my seniors.. hehe.. great sunday! but i was exhausted by the time i reach my aunt's place at 5am and overnight there.

that's about all. k, i love this song. but the rapper totally spoils it. haha. but its cool. "i love you...." lol. k i shall spend my day at home today and be good. hehe. i've been on the comp like forever and my mum's nagging at me coz i haven't eaten all day. haha. shall go and eat first. :)

let's go out, people. lol. :)

amigo

2008-12-05T13:48:00.005+08:00

ouh man.. i thought i would feel better when i get back to singapore. but apparently, not really. after all those bad tummy, fever and cold. now, im having flu.. :( hopefully, it doesn't make me feel too sick and lose more weight. as it is, being sick in jakarta ever since friday, vomitting a little and being very weak, i lost 7kg. somehow, im thankful for that. but if i were to lose more weight, i'll be very very skinny. hehe.

anihoos, i am soo looking forward to blogging about the jakarta trip but i haven't have the time. ya, so called holiday but no time. hehe. ironic. i will find time soon okies.. the fun i had in jakarta for 8 days is definitely alot to be put into words so yeah.. i'll try..

anw, despite not having time to blog, coz im busy slacking, keeping up with new and old frineds and uploading all the photos, which is still not done yet, of course, i did manage to find some time to find some jobs. and alhamdulillah. things are going smoothly so far. im not planning to work this december but i will, insya allah, have a job early next year! haha! alhamdulillah. im soo excited! haha. for now, i just wanna have fun! hehe.

ohke. time to go. stop video-ing and have some lunch and maybe off to town, from my aunt's at bedok reservoir.

i made a confession. lol.

nyjc prom nite

2008-12-04T02:53:00.006+08:00

kinda fun nite, meeting up with some of my frens. taking pix tgt. basically a simple dinner and some fun. it would have been more fun if some of us could sit together or at least, nearer. kae, nothing much to say abt prom coz it's not tt interesting luh. coz not everyone was there. but preparing for prom was more fun and ya, thanx yana! haha. the only thing which is interesting is mao cheng being the prom king! haha. ok, that's abt it. let the pix do the talking ohke?

ohke. as u can see there's oni a few photos here. the rest are in my multiply ohkies.
and yaa.. im still not done with the jakarta photos. pardon me, my friends.

chinggu.

a short notice

2008-12-01T22:39:00.003+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!! yes, im back from jakarta! wee hoo! home sweet home! but i miss everyone i know in jakarta!! kae. i have tonnes to update here about the wonderful and most awesomest trip that i had with my friends. but first thing first...

to all my friends, be it from singapore or indonesia, please please please..
bear with me alright. i really wanna update my blog now but i really really got alot to say and alot of photos to upload!

sooo.. lemme upload all the 1000 over photos first before i write about the trip ok! bear with me alrite! im super super sorry!! will update soon!!

lovess..

cookies&cream.

2008-11-20T20:26:00.002+08:00

hew! there's soo many pic to be uploaded. and im done with most of them. all in multiply :) took me the whole afternoon. sheesh! looking at the pix makes me happy. hehe.

anihoos. y'dae i went out with someone. it shall end there. as in, no elaboration. lol. anw, enjoyed myself luh. watched quantum of solace again!! hehe. i just love that guy! and and took a ride on the singapore flyers. kinda cool. the scenery is nice with all the lampu lampu. yeah. and then.. went to sentosa and watched songs of the sea again. haha. reminds me of the indo students.

that is, we are visiting them next week! ya, as much as i duwanna mention it here, (but zul keep on tagging me about it) ya, 20 of us will be enjoying ourselves in indonesia the whole of next week! awesomeness coz... its like a holiday for us! haha. looking forward to it! and we will be dancing too (6 of us) ! its a new dance for me and thank god, me and fana could make out the dance like in 2 to 3 hours time! cool?? yea! haha! and YES, FARHANAH's dancing!!! HAHAH! will video it so that our dear frens left in singapore could watch! hehe. :)

i shall stop here. toodles. :)

im just not ready.
and it doesn't feel right..
im sorry.

one load off my shoulders!

2008-11-17T21:39:00.004+08:00

i have been enjoying myself too much during the weekends that i don't even have time to shout out loud YAYY!!! A LEVELS IS SUPER OVER THE MOON ALREADY!!! AWESOME-ness! hehe. just praying hard things will turn out superbly good for me next year. :) honestly, it feels kinda weird not having to look at notes, worksheets and stuff anymore for quite a long time. bt the feeling's kinda good i must say. :) but no school, means also, no fun.. aww.. i really am missing school already.. and all the fun people and things i can do. anihoos, with As over, there's tonnes of things to look forward to!!

one of which is updating this blog and uploading pix. like from b4, during and aft exams pix.

friday was the last paper. a 50 min mcq paper and then it was fun time! in fact, on thurs aft hist, we alr hooray hooray! dora, nira, jiayu, tsuhui and me went to watch hsm3. ok, u must be saying wth this jc kids doing this bt its fun! no. 41's uber cute and i love ashley tisdale and corbin bleu and stuff. it was not so bad la but i tell you, i cannot stand the troy n gabriella partsss!! wth. they take years to end!! and the songs.. too many!!! anw, its over. haha. friday, aft chem, syakirah, zul, haziq, eddy, iliyas and me played floorball!! a good way to end exams, seriously. hehe. and then met my kuzz at amk and walk walk walk. and went bck to her place and then, she slept over at my place.

the next day, we went to town with nana and a.a aft which, we met the rest of our cousins and watch quantum of solace at cathay!! at first we wanted to watch rec bt one of us is still below 16 so had to abort the idea. and aft some funny funny tings happened at ps, we went off to cathay and watch dear daniel craig. hehe. tell u, he looks uber old and at first i was like why this old man. but... he is damn gorgeous!! the way he walk and the way he do his stunts.. damn cool!!! i love his eyes and everything he does.. gosh!! hehe.. other than just movie, wirdah n i did some shopping too. haha.

and yesterday.. went to the airport to send my dad off for haji. oh, i cried again! tsk tsk tsk.. i cannot control it. for aft a long time, i kiss my dad only yesterday. im gonna miss the naggy old man. hehe. hope he's ok and healthy there and no one gives him anymore troubles, like i always do. i guess, its true that the further the person is the fonder the heart gets. i tink its kinda funny, he is going there as the so called leader or more like pegawai with 14 members. but i tink, he has the most people sending him off. haha. popular person. n big family. aft he went in, most of us went off to tampines for my maternal cousin's wedding. it was fun. for once, i talk to some of my not-so-close cousins. they're are nice people and i love them. :)

soo much for just 3 days rite?? hehe. yeah. im off to uploading photos now.. :)

yey its game over!!
time to relax..

this guy, is he for real??

2008-11-10T13:21:00.002+08:00

being stuck in the exam mood, its kinda 'wrong' to be playing around and stuff. but seriously, a bunch of us did not miss out on the word FUN although we are under super alot of stress. like previously, just before the whole a levels started, instead of gg running with dina on that thurs, we postponed it to the next day and we (dina, eddy, wan, zul, haziq and me) actually played floorball after that. hehe. damn fun and funny!! and we gt cheerleaders from the malay room! haha. hmm.. im hoping there would be another chance to play fb with them again. :)

anihoos, tomr's chem ppr. im totally freaking out coz my chem totally suck. and im praying hard that i can do well enuff to at least pass this subject. it's like my worse ever subject. sigh. it's ok. the whole thing will be over soon. i have quite some time to memorise and get things into my head! hehe.

kae, i better go back to studying. got my vid uploaded. hehe. and study quick coz at 6 i have MB to look forward to! and there's YAMD rite aft to catch! :)

come what may..

he is the dumbest thing!!

2008-11-06T17:13:00.003+08:00

im super fuming mad right now!! waahh!! how can he be so dumb and tell her?? wtf! im so angry rite now. insensitive idiotic jerk! no brain!! see, im so mad that it's affecting my brain too!! it's like gonna blow any minute and its disrupting my concentration on math!! im super gonna bash him up if i see him. b*****d! to think, u tink of me liddat. damn u!

i shall not dirty my blog any further. hmpf! pissed pissed pissed. super pissed!!! sigh. anihoos, y'dae went to sch and met asnira and we went off to novena to see 'jewelry'! ok, the excitement shall stop here coz duwanna elaborate more. met some annoying people too. seo in young is pretty! ah, love her. :)

and at night, i met yana. managed to catch up for a bit and studied tgt. a fren of ours is funny. ooh, blame me for not being nice. cheh. i smiled. u walked off. not my fault!! haha.

ohkay. being pissed, i got nothing much to say. and there's exam tomr. i shall stop here.

oh, i super hate u and ur bloody damn thing!!

cheat me huh!! hmpf!

2008-11-01T21:00:00.003+08:00

waahh!! im super super angry noe! i feel sooo cheated!! my stuffs are not delivered to me yet and i saw what i wanted sold in stores! at a cheaper price!!! aahhh!! fish fish fish!!! to humor myself, aft seeing what i didnt wanna see, i ended up buying like 3 dvds and vcds.. hahaha.. im soo.. me. tsk tsk tsk..

yeay!! 3 papers down!! feel sooo much more relieved!! okay lah. exams have been tough so far but there's no easy exams rite?? so yeah. its over! soo be happy!! and thankful! :) for now, needa concentrate on my gp, math and abit of chem.. before touching on my ih. can't wait to get As over and done with! looking forward to post-exams activities!! soo much can be done!! excited! hehe.

have been spending the day in school. should be studying math n gp with dina, nira and fana. haha. haziq, eddy and zul were there in the morning, in the malay room. they are super funny. oh wells. although i dint study that much, i did have fun. coz we laugh alot, catch up alot and 'bitch' alot. ooops to those people who ended up coughing upside down. hehe.

anihoos, y'dae was a bad experience. its really the first time in my entire life facing this. already, i slept super late coz i was studying for sea hist and malay lit exams, k la, i did sleep for 3hr when i got home. hehe. so yeah, slept late and guess what, i woke up late too!! like at 7!! and i have to be in school around 7.30?? time to seriously freak out!! what could be worse than being late on the day u're taking exams ur not that prepared for rite???!! luckily, my dad's not working so he could rush me to school and i made it on time! hehe. thank god. i shall not tell u wad hapnd at home that made me think the worst things would happen. lol.

i cant wait to have some free time to go to my aunt's and get my stuff. :) and i cant wait to video!! lol. wooo.. there's so many can't waitss. the time will come soon!! ookay. time to go! wanna watch some movie before i start studying again! toodles!

why must everything be so hurtful for me???
hate. hate. hate.

michoso~..

2008-10-23T01:02:00.004+08:00

im stuck to 'nobody'.
"i want nobody, nobody but you..." lalalalalaaa.. :p

DONUT . DONUT . DONUT .

hah. duno why im all crazy over 'donut'. i find it a bit dumb but it has something to do with the inner feelings, u know, something u cannot control.. yeaahhh.. haha..

in denial of this feeling. many that i know r going thru something like wad im gg thru right now but trying hard to brush away those feelings and intentions. bury them deep deep down and pretend nothing's going on. diy shud noe wad im talking about. sigh. i duwanna think soo much for now. just wanna concentrate on my exams. i can give others advice but for me myself, i have to seriously forget about my unrealistic thinking and get rid of those emotions. nothing will come out of it. i know that and so, i shud forget it. wishful thinking only.

anihoos! last friday the j2 malays, i mean not all but a bunch of us went jalan raya. haha. it was quite fun with the clowns around. oh wells. i will upload the photos soon. :)

ooo.. you're my destiny starting soon! it's been like soo super along since i last watch it. and i 'stumble' upon another drama, 'i'm sorry, i love you'. ooo.. the two guys are super gorgeous. haha. okok. stop here. looking forward to tomr's evening jog with dina. :)

oh gosh. im sleepy. still dun have enuff sleep after reaching home at 2.30 am yesterday and the whole day today in school and still awake now. aiyo.

exams.acha acha acha!!!

a long tiring week

2008-10-12T22:37:00.003+08:00

im so tired. im so sleepy rite now. my eyes could barely open. sigh. been kinda busy with stuff recently. erm.. more like been slacking alot this week. haha. hardly touch my lecture notes, lecture pad and stuff. bad bad. tomr's gp mock exam. im super not looking forward to it. in fact, im not looking forward to this next two to three weeks coz its gonna be super hectic. i need a lil break before starting to concentrate fully on the upcoming As.

anihoos. friday was graduation ceremony. in the morning, there was only like 3 to 4 ppl but apparently, it was full attendance at the end of the day during grad ceremony. during the speeches, we weren't really paying attention. in fact, some of us were taking photos la. haha. oops. anihoos, wen the awards were given, we were laughing n laughing coz our class would have won too coz we top almost all the awards from the bottom! haha. how wonderful 0732 is. anihoos. we have officially graduated from nyjc. initially, we were like FINALLY! but when come to think of it, the 2 years ended so soon and unlike secondary school and primary school which was more happening, i feel like life in jc is kinda slack-ish. ok la. not so bad for me. coz i made good frens, enjoyed my ccas and had pleasant memory definitely. :) im gonna miss being in nyjc. so, shall cherish the good times im gonna have with the others before the end of As. im gonna miss school life and wearing uniform. :)

aft grad ceremony, we went for class lunch. initially wanted to go to marina sq seoul garden / pizza hut but we ended up gg to toa payoh pizza hut. haha. its kinda fun getting to catch up and laugh along with each other. it's like finally, the class is super bonded!! :) but as usual, there r people mia. but its ok la. :) and we took class photo aft tt. and we were all amazed by the fact that 0732 look super pack and its like a huge family! hehe. oh btw, we have a new member, dominic. hehe. class hopping.

aft which, some went home, some went for tuition, while 8 of us (mao cheng, dom, lester, siying, cheryl, tsuhui, hong siew and me) filled up the seats in the gv theatre at plaza sing, watching the house bunny. hehe. quite nice la. funny funny. and then we headed home. by the time i reach home, i dun have any more energy to go out for raya visiting to my sis' in laws. i dun even have the energy to study even abit, not even to watch tv! hehe.

and yesterday, had malay lesson at cikgu ibrahim's house and headed down to my aunt's at bedok reservoir. supposedly, i have to follow my sis go visiting but i've decided not to coz im in great pain and i wanted to study at home. but the idea totally vapourised into thin air coz i still reach home kinda late and only manage to study history abit. was watching pendekar bujang lapok. haha. i cannot forget the perigi incident. damn funny. hehe.

and ya, just now, me and iman (oh ya, i dragged him home with me y'dae so he sleeping over.) followed nana to work and only then did i manage to study abit again. spend like almost half a day there. and then went to jurong point! gosh! the interchange reminds me of karachi airport can??? so full of foreigners! as it is, i already hate gg to jp, and gg there just now for dinner, makes me hate it even more! i will nvr step in there ever again for as long as i can! its like bangla land! horrible. tsk tsk. see, doing soo much things over the weekend, a bit waste of time oso la.. sigh. now, back to revising gp and also, shud i do my project?? gosh! its soo late alr la!!! :(

ohkay, to 0732, photos are in my multiply. happy koping! :)

as much as i wan the stranger to be away from me,
the stranger appears again.

when the camera snaps..

2008-10-04T00:40:00.004+08:00

finally i got some time at home! they have decided not to go visiting for today so i have a bit of time to blog and upload the hari raya photos. but 2h of my time was spent gg to west coast with nana n azam just now for fun just to eat at mac. haha. :)

the past 2 days had been rather lethargic but fun, of course. hehe. i was too exhausted at the end of yesterday tt u duwanna noe wad i did! haha. i went to school with an 'emo kid eye'. that's wad they said. thanx to the eye liner. hehe. anw, hari raya happens at the wrong timing. it is always colliding with major exams like n level, psle, a level and stuff.. ooo how annoying.. "-_-

anihoos, i just realise, my prelims has these grades which forms EC-U!! HAHA!! i'm wondering who's my EC.. hmm.. kae, wadeva with the grades, i haven't start my preps for As. soon. i will. insya allah. hehe. the principal addressed us on the issue pertaining with retaining and stuff and it really wake my small brain up. for once, i listen to him, aft soo long, and i find it useful and encouraging! haha. soo.. it's time to stop pondering whether i wanna retain or not but just be determined and have a positive attitude and push myself harder to get better grades! dun care about those freaks with tonnes of As, just think of myself and i will be fine. rite rite?? 27 days. i still have time to buck up n not give up! :) i was given some encouragement by some of my frens and it realli helps. thank u soo much! :) aja aja! hwaiting~!

okayys. here are some photos. the rest, please visit my multiply to view them. :)

my family. :)

dilla. :)

nana n kakak. :)

wirdah. :)
we kept sms-ing each other to update our where-abouts. coz initially she's suppose to follow my sis' car. but we nvr meet till the very last house! and we took photo bt all the post the same! haha! too tired alr to pose! emmy was super funny la. he was taking our pic like crazy at one moment. i'm waiting.. to get the pics.. :)

uki. :)
he is damn funny la. this was taken very the last minute when everyone wans to go home already. he was like "then shedah nvr take photo with uki." and i was like, "how i noe. from just now duwan say. wan take, take now la ok?" haha. so we were tkaing photo at our granduncle's gate! haha. his reaction aft the last photo was super funny. let's wait for him to send it to me. i hope i dun have to wait till next raya for the photo!!

will update more soon!! have tonnes to say bt gtg! wanna watch my k-drama! thanx to hari raya, i missed soo many episodes!! grr!! and yaa.. i sound soo stress n upset in the previous post, but im definitely feeling better now! haha! and im xtra happy (altho i miss my k dramas and stuff!!) coz i've ordered the cute cute socks & another dvd! LOL. =p

must get rid of that infatuation!! :(

L-O-U-S-Y

2008-09-30T00:28:00.004+08:00

i was like on a hiatus. it has been quite some time ever since i blogged so here i am blogging.

haven't been feeling well this few days again. physically and emotionally and mentally. huu huu.. spent my weekends at f1 gp with some friends till early morning. it was tiring but it wasn't so bad. made new friends, had my friends taking care of me and more. *sweet* haha.

and as a matter of fact, i had insufficient sleep for past 3 days and i woke up super late for school just now. thot i had 2 lessons, 1 in morning n the other in aftn. i seriously felt like not going to school at all any more. and was telling my dad to go off without me when he insisted that i hurry and he wait for me. and so i dragged myself to school. i was devastated, honestly. giving up hopes. totally. anw, ya, apparently, i went to school oni 4 45 mins lesson can?? stayed in school till abt 9+ when a fren said there's no malay. and so i seriously left school asap coz i just cant be bothered anymore to stay in school any longer. (that's how terrible i feel! ok lah, only i know how i feel being in school and out of school.) what made me left even sooner is seeing people i duwanna see! annoying.

took the bus to golden landmark with asnira to get my hari raya costume altered. it's nice and i like it. but apparently, my sleeves were not the way i want them to be. so ya. got my bustier altered too. haha. happily said to the auntie it fits me just nice. but the fact that i can zip it myself, that means it's loose??? and so she tighten it for me. god, i hope i cn breath in it on wednesday! haha! im so excited for raya altho many feel it's a total different thing. i do wanna celebrate and get my mind off all the stupid major crisis i'm going thru, which nobody knew wat.

so ya, i reach home at 11+ and took the chance to sleeeepppp.. althou i was disturbed so many time. hehe. i get to watch stairway to heaven. the episode just now was super sad luh. she got blind and couldn't even get a last glance at the guy she loves. and she would rather die coz being blind is the most fearful thing for her. love always make things complicated, don't u think so? and it's always unnecessary. i'm facing it right now and i just dunno how to deal with it. (i shouldn't go on here.) :(

so close, yet so far.

dejected.

i wish there's someone i could talk to.

prelims: suckishly done!

2008-09-20T00:56:00.007+08:00

ohkayy. while waiting for 'you're my destiny' to start, i shall blog for abit. :)

yeayy!! prelims are officially over! looking forward to the long break till monday and then, it's scary days coming coz we will be getting our papers back. nervous nervous. im kinda upset with my performance la but no regrets.

anihoos. paper ended like at 5.30pm and after tt, we headed to town to break fast and at the same time, celebrate fanah's birthday. happy birthday fanana!!! haha. coz we have yet to buy her gift, i met dinah b4 malay exam at amk hub and bought her some stuff. dina lied to fana saying she meet some fren and fana tot it's her boyf. so ya, im the 'boyf'. haha. funny funny. and we took our time like as if we were soo prepared for exams liddat. in actual fact, we r soo not prepared! anihoos. i did terribly for my lit paper. skimpy answers. realli no mood to do exam. and im sandwiched between fir and wan. feel so uncomfortable sandwiched by A students. pressure!! hahaha!!

at lucky plaza pizza hut, we ate super slowly. dinah wasn't feeling well. and then sang fanana birthday song adn the manager cmae up to us asking who's birthday is it and we got blueberry cheesecake slice on the house!! nicee!! hehe.. soo cute rite the manager?? so sweet. hehe. anihoos. its a good evening except for the part where we gt home super late! me, diy and yang got stuck in town waiting for super slow and packed 190/700/171. ended up taking 190 towards clarke quay to get a not so packed bus home. lucky us we got to sit. :)

anihoos, it just struck my mind when i see this teenage boy and girl on the bus. why ah.. why do cute boys always go for 'ugly' looking girls?? god. can't stand the look on the girl having a cutie beside her. u shud see my expression. hehe. okay. i'm kinda mean. but seriously!! nvm tt, that bo look like mushroom head! haha!

birthday girl, dina, diy, me, hu yang. :)

anihoos. more photos at shamonela.multiply.com. :)

besides tt, ahh!! can't wait for my mirotic album (gift from my frens) to be delivered to my door steps!!

work hard.
don't stress!

perk up!

2008-09-17T20:33:00.003+08:00

prelims. its coming to an end real soon. but sadly, our last paper which is malay lit is seriously the last paper of prelims! sigh! why must it be on a friday afternoon. okay, i shall not complain so much. for as long as i'm concern, at least there's sufficient time to prepare myself to get an A for malay. insya allah. and to the other 9 students, we can get our A for malay lit! go go go! :)

i feel like a rag. a rag which is being wrenched real hard. every part of me is giving way and i dunno if i can hold on any longer. im affected emotionally, physically and mentally. and for school, i still have yet to put in enough effort, but im already feeling the weariness and at the rate im going, im kinda worried to be taking As in 41 days. the countdown just ticks off faster and faster. i feel like it's just yesterday it was still 70 days to As. im still at basics! must work harder from next week on. i have wasted so much time and it's time i shudn't anymore and start taking things more seriously. it's kinda late but not too late for someone like me (it's just my pattern.) i dunno how i'm gonna achieve it but i noe i just will. :) it's fasting month. it came so suddenly and it's coming to an end real soon. it's half way thru. :) amidst all the challenges i have to face, i have to be real strong and do my best in everything i do. insya allah, He will help me and guide me along. amiin.

emi embarrassed me in the train just now. i dint even noe he was in the train and so near to me for soo long. i was busy sms-ing and stuff and suddenly i heard someone calling me "SHAHIDAH!" super loudly. and i was like, "ehh.. who's that??" and i saw him, my cousin. it was soo funny coz he was sitting and im standing and we were quite some distance apart and he happily talk to me across that big space. hehe. anihoos, it's good to see him in that belang2 baju. haha. it's so hard to see him nowadays. the last was at nana's wedding.

and something stupid this young lady did that makes her miss her jb trip with her aunts! okayy.. agian, i bubbled. unintentionally this time round. im so sorry! can't blame me. my eyesight's failing! a 4 looks like a 9 to me. okay, ya. understood. wth! haha!

i have tonnes to say but the pain my chest is suffering from just wont allow me to. but it's okay coz i dun think it belongs here. its rather personal i guess. (this is bad. im keeping things to myself more and more.) anihoos to nana, "waaa!! da habis exam sei!! PHAN-TAT LUU!! jangan lupe aku! mesti teman aku ngan motivate aku untok blaja, beb! kau sorang je la yang at least semi faham ape aku nga go thru. hehe."

my dream and the reality clashes too much.

why can't i get what and who i dream for?

sleep!

2008-09-17T03:12:00.003+08:00

sigh! Past few days been sleeping like a log! And now when i should be sleeping, i'm happily blogging using my phone. Am i crazy or what.?! And best part is i'm not done with revising chem!! Okay.. I shall try and sleep coz i oni have an hour to sleep! This is bad..

how much i cannot relate to the word 'mug'

2008-09-14T05:55:00.006+08:00

it's my 333rd post. haha. u noe, we always dread going for consultations. esp with mr k. but last friday, somehow or another we (me & asnira) ended the session kinda well with him but instead of getting things done with sbq, mr k decided not to do any work with us but talk to us. as in motivational? ermmm.. yaa. haha.

must be wondering why he did that rite?? coz obviously, we had "we-r-super-cant-take-this-anymore" face and practically showed no interest in antg he said. HAHA! k laa. we did listen but we just dun get how things go and stuff. so ya. he made us identify our own strength in studying pattern and as a person. and advised us on what's best for us. i took a long time to pick out my strength thou. haha. so, in short, my efficient studying pattern is writing notes and re-teaching my ownself (im suppose to apply this since friday afternoon, like mr k insisted, till tonight when i study for my monday papers; history n math but i just cant! SIGH. but i will definitely do it for As) :) and then, for my strength is im nice to talk to? haha. basically i think im nice luh (altho some ppl think im sombong and stuff! boo hoo! haha.) hehe. and then, he was saying that my strength is my friendliness. (am i dat friendly??) HAHA! and it goes beyond that bt i shall not say too much abt it here. :) altho i just go to school for this 'talk', i tink its beneficial. but it only motivated me for like 5 mins?? coz for the rest of the time i was in school, supposedly to study, i just cudnt study!! haha. and im so sorry to my frens. hehe. and i dun tink im hard to please but i have difficulties accepting some ppl the way they are only. that's all. hehe. but i will still be nice towards them despite their differences and provided they r nice to me. hehehe.

y'dae went to my aunt's. again met my kuzz. haha! we had some deals on. and now, we r soo looking forward to raya. ok, not really coz if i am, it means, im looking forward to a hell time of cleaning the windows and of course, A levels! nvrtheless, it seems like on 1st day of raya we will look kinda similar. haha. can't wait to get my baju raye!! LOL. i dunno why im so excited abt raye but i just tink that it feels soo great to be meeting all ur relatives everywhere esp when u hav alot of relatives. it's a nice feeling. anw, ydae was like back to the past. wen i was wif my kuzz, im just reminded of the great childhood we had together. we were super close and super twin-ish. so cute n annoying. hehe. :)

okay. away with raye, back to prelims. gosh! i hope its gonna end real soon! then i can peacefully do some things i wanna do! like catching up with 'ur my destiny', 'pure 19', 'stairway to heaven' and more! haha! and i wanna catch mb again soon to watch lee seung ki again!! haha! and and catching movies! its been a long while eva since i go watch movies. sigh sigh. hehe.

anihoos. missed the liverpool vs man u match. YEAYY, liverpool won!! HAHAHA! but i did manage to catch a bit of the blackburn rovers vs arsenal match. not reali a fan of any of the two but the fact that arsenal won and there's aaron ramsey, its a YEAY! for arsenal!! HAHA! i like ramsey (jersey no 16) !! and the other day, after sahor, was watching denmark vs portugal game. YEAYY to denmark!! HAHA!! we were so happy the danish won. HAHA. okay enuff of football. all thanks to my dad la im stuck with it again aft soo long.

hmm.. considering i missed out on studying the whole of ydae morning and afternoon coz i was playing virtual tennis on my kuzz psp! i feel so sinful! so today i have to study real alot coz seriously, im super not ready for monday's exams! both r just as bad! and im feeling sick now. so i better get going. hehe.

to my dear frens, happy ~~mugging~~ studying! (sorry! the word 'mug' just dun register in my head!) haha!

PLEASE!!!

super junior H

2008-09-09T16:06:00.006+08:00

its not really nice to see them being break up into smaller groups but these songs are uber cute! haha!

suju h - pajama party

suju h - cooking cooking

i jumbled up history!

2008-09-09T15:05:00.004+08:00

6 more papers to go. SIGH. y'dae's was horrendously done, especially southeast asia history! oh myy. the questions were foreign (just like the teacher!) and the entire paper was difficult but a big big bore! i almost fell asleep. asnira! u can still sleep!! me and mdm sha were like smiling la, look at u! haha! and ya, it seems like an eternity for the exam to end. i wrote and wrote but the answers just dun get any longer and i think im gonna score terribly for the essays. waste my ink! lol. anihoos. it's over. thank god. left with international history. and not forgetting, mr k's consultation.

okayy. initially, wanted to go to bed after morning prayers and wake up around 9 to study chemistry (so totally really not interested to do it. and im super unprepared. ) but i ended up doing stuff online and watching mb online watching 'circus' by mc mong and special appearance by LEE SEUNG GI!! awww.. another heart throb. hehe. and happily do this n that till its 11 plus. this song and 'cinderella' was in my head since yesterday before history paper! asnira and me were like singing and humming this. haha. stuck in the head luh. the songs kept me awake during the paper thou.

and then, wanted to watch cartoon but i ended up sleeping and woke up like only at late 2plus???!! wth. but its kinda okay i suppose. coz while i was sleeping, it was super noisy! construction work, drill here drill there thump here thump there!! ahh!! my ears like wanna break liddat. so even if i wake up earlier, i dun think i can study. but apparently, i can sleep! haha! and also, now's a better time to get cracking coz the noises are gone! hehe. goood timing.. :)

okay. hiccups! toodles!

WHY?! WHY?!
why CHEMISTRY tomr???
SUCK!

SCANDALOUS DAY

2008-09-07T14:43:00.003+08:00

i noe i shud be studying not tym to blog or even use the computer. coz i have two annoying papers tomr! but i have to take it slow. i realised that i cannot work under pressure. seriously. so im like taking my own sweet tym to get things done and get the facts in my head, slotted in properly into the different components in my small brain. okay, i may be slow but i promise i will get things really really done ok. :) (have faith in myself. )

anihoos. today's SCANDAL day with nana. coz her hubby is working on sundays so its the oni day we get to spend quality time together. so yeah. im like spending my time with her. late morning, we went to pasar tgt. she totally embarrassed me at the chicken stall luh. she and her dumbness. hehe. and then, i was in her room listening to her rants. she is kinda worried over something. but all i have to say is let time do the thing. coz seriously, if u show ur concern only now, it might be weird and people will judge u more differently and stuff. i duno how to say it, but i noe u get wad i mean rite? im sorry if im kinda the reason. *sigh*

i was touched by what dina told me previously abt her fren. her fren is super lucky. and i tink its kinda hard to find guys this days who r liddat. she's dating this foreign guy, whose a non-muslim bt apparently, he was willing to convert for her and on top of that, he wants her to be a good muslim. subhanallah. isn't that just a miracle? see, an exaple of love knowing no boundary. i wish i cud be just as lucky as her in times to come.

its hard to keep a true friend.

will i even have 1??

life is just liddat.

bear with it.

annoying doctor

2008-09-05T20:15:00.005+08:00

yesterday, went back school to study. with dina and farhanah. they were cracking their brains la trying to explain to me that maths concept of infinite solution blablabla (duwan to talk maths here! haha!) poor them. i still dun get it. im sorry. but thank you! haha. but someone saved me today. haha! i finally understood! thank you!! and studied quite a lot till i got sleepy and slept and then watched abit of music and lyrics before gg off to amk banquet with dina, where lester actually came over to watch us eat and go home with me. and y'dae i suffered from horrible chest pain so i finally decided to go to the doc coz my frens were telling me go go go. haha.

went this morning. tell u! i was super pissed can?? seriously, the word which kept coming out from the doctor's mouth is mostly IT'S NOTHING LAAA... and he got that 'haiyo.. y u come doctor coz of this kind of pain..' face?? wah lao wei.. kns. waste my time noe!!! coz of the damn useless consultation, i went to school later than usual. and i dint manage to study much.. grrr!! angry angry. stupid doctor. (darren!! go kill the doctor can???) HAHA.

okay.. im suppose to be studying history not be on computer. and my dear cousin is playing my guitar and making soo much noise!! all funny funny songs come out!! weird kid!! tsk tsk tsk.. NOISY LA OI!!! MANGKUK! HAHAHA!

i'm sad. SIGH.

JB & TVXQ

2008-09-05T06:16:00.005+08:00

burnin' up - jonas brothers.

not really into them n ignoring all the stories abt them and stuff, i just think nick jonas is exceptionally cute. lol. nevertheless, i like their songs too. gona try and catch camp rock but seriously i tink its not gonna amuse me dat much. and demi lovato. hmm.. i tink she's not so wow to look at. bt thank god its not any of the more popular teen icons like .....

nvm tt.. but still, no matter wad, dong bang shin ki's the best!! HAHA. ohh.. their new 4th album coming out soon! and thanx to my dearest frens (the ppl who gave me a super small prezie but made me jump like crazy! almost tearing. hehe. the smallest but most WOW prezie. hehe.) , who pre-ordered them for me for my birthday, that album will be delivered right to my doorsteps in a few weeks time!! hahaha.

that's a mixture of some of their photos. love. love. =p

i feel much better now. :)

am i not suppose to understand and feel wad's love like again?

get off me or i'll kill you! =p

2008-09-03T20:49:00.007+08:00

someone's gg nuts at home. and driving others esp me insane too. for god's sake. im so pissed with her. lil something oso wanna complain wanna get mad wanna scream here and there. and so egoistic. nonsense. hmm.. whatever. i know i did do my part and help abit so im not gonna bother about u, lil miss know it all. hmpf! if i can, i will kill her, seriously. like how darren killed that SGC thingy. she's worse than a bug! she's driving me nuts. and seriously, it makes my chest hurt more. i feel like my breath will cut short in a moment or two! SIGH. why she so liddat one. god is really testing me by making me her sibling, worse, the youngest of all!! (god, help her ok? i duwan to always be the mean one when she was the one who was SUPER MEAN towards me ever since i was small. please dun make me hate her.)

studying is so tiring. but im glad my frens are there with me, to help me out and motivate me on! especially dina, darren and farhanah whom i see evday in school studying with me ever since study break. everyday gg to school although it's the holidays feels so terrible. it's like when can i rest!! :( and having to run away from mr k is even worse! make me like an idiot. and worse, he called me just coz i duwnna go for his consultation! SIGH. im tired and im stress. it makes me feel so sick but somehow, im fine. haha. prelims prelims. my migraine's back. haiyo.

can i have a more normal sibling??
this is so not fun.

lazy with tivo

2008-08-31T01:17:00.006+08:00

i slept for 11 hours and woke up late. it was almost afternoon luh by then. haha. must have been too tired. haha.

y'dae, as in friday, was teachers' day celebration. supposedly, many of us did not wanna go coz its like a waste of time. but end up alot of us turned up coz we were suppose to have our math mock p2 aft the celebration. ev1 was like making soo much noise about it. and me, i obviously didnt prepare antg for the paper. in fact, i was prepared to just scheme thru the paper and doze off. haha! seemed like the tchers cud read our minds. and so, we just took the paper and then off we went.

i didnt go home thou. and i oso abandoned the idea of gg baybeats with my kuzz at nite. went for lunch and stayed in sch with dina, farhanah n darren to study. i did history! for once, i really studied and get smtg done. and i dint sigh! coz its not math! HAHA! i did waste some time thou. but unlike some ppl, they slept! haha!! nevertheless, b4 studying i did help them waste their time too! i asked them to play sahibba with me! including darren! haha! that's where we teach him some malay. haha. then, lester joined us. and around 4.30, we went for our jog! 15 rounds around the track. wow! accomplishment!! i was expecting like 5 but who knew we jogged 15 rounds! HAHA! darren was soo funny. he kept asking me, "kaki kau ok tak??" hehehe.. to say yes, i will have to stop running, to say no i wud be lying. but i did say no la aft a few rounds coz the ankles were giving way! dotss. hehe. yes, my legs hurt and i have an unstable knee just now, and my ankle swelled since last night but my legs wont break, dont worry! hehe.

and then, farhanah wanted to do some pull up. so we went over to the bars and they made me try! haha! of course with their support. i cn do pull up! hahaha!! they said i got strong biceps! hehe. so ya, aft buying drinks, we continued studying for a while and then went off. aft soo long, again, another encounter with lizards!! haha!

anihoos. being home all day long, and just having cabletv reinstalled again, i had the whole tivo to myself! and i managed to catch the last 3 episodes of full house by chance!! haha! rain look cute and wow in the drama. hehe. and i oso manage to watch tears of the sun if im not wrong. thank god, the good looking soldier survive! haha! gruesome movie about ethnic cleansing. and i also watched open concert on kbs. aahh!! super junior happy super cute luh. kangin wasn't there thou. funny funny. some had hair clips on and cute sleepwear. cute cute. hehe.

had kenduri at home just now ard 8, with the block ppl. gathering before ramadhan. finally, i see imran. haha. so yaa, it feels like hari raya. so many ppl visiting home n enjoying good food. haha. okay. that's abt it for now. im starting to sneeze and have a cold. and my chest is starting to hurt alot. god, im like so old liddat. so much pain. better get to bed. tomr's gonna be a long day. i wanna study. :) i had enuff rest today aft a long week. hehe. tt reminds me of GP exam on thur. god, it was so hard tt in the aftn, when i wanted to study in sch, i was having migraine alr. and by the time i did the 6th qn in p2, my head felt like dropping onto the table alr. haha. horrible. sigh. (oo.. cannot sigh!! haha!)

good frens.

how is that possible??

im still contemplating.
shud i go for d&d??

EIGHTeen

2008-08-23T20:16:00.024+08:00

wanna wish PUTERI and MIMI a happy 18th birthday! =)

eighteen. yaa, finally legal. haha. no biggy. as the no. gets bigger, the more responsibility and matured one has to be. and being 18, its the peak of youth and finding our true identity. ahh.. no fun.. adulthood on its way. hehe. i still feel like im still a kiddo. haha!

thursday, 21 august. there was inter house touch rugby tournament. i was in the same team as TEAMMATES: boulder, jun rui, eng siong and benny. hehe. i hav nvr ever played with them xcept for boulder of course. i must say it was very interesting having teammates like them. haha. they were soo caring luh. coz im alr having wobbly ankles which were taped up alr, and i sprained smtg, and then as the games went on, i was shinned and stuff, so they were constantly asking whether im ok or not and all. and boulder kept on reminding me to go slow. hehe. there were quite a no. of teams with only one girl in the team. and ours is no exception! altho we dint get into cup category, we still won the plate runner-up! its good enuff! yeayy!! well done to us!! hehe. i definitely had fun despite the tiring and painful experience. haha. they knew wad happened to me. lol! and yaaa, there's this incident which was err yaa.. haha. hou chiat was soo on and cheering on like almost everyone he knew. haha! totally reminds me of him during orientation. lol. and some of my classmates who stayed back in sch to study! they were cute la. they were shouting put my name when i was on the field and waving around, showing their support. haha. and so it was a fun fun super fun and active day for me aft a while. haha.

yesterday, seemed to be a super good day for me coz all my remedials were cancelled and i ended like at 1.30. so waited for the rest with mao cheng before we went off for dinner at airport!! haha. it was kinda our last day of school before the midyears. and we were gg thr for my early birthday outing. hehe. lester joined us. and then darren, nira, nazreen, dina and farhanah came and off to t3 to eat at POPEYE'S!!! i must say the bus ride was very bumpy and the boys were sleeping. haha.

although it was just a simple dinner, i must say it was very fun! had alot of laughter and photos taken. but sadly, mao mao and lester had to leave earlier so left with the 6 of us. we were so childish, aft gg to candy empire, we actually went over to this small booth and did some fossil tracing! haha!! damn cute luh and fun! hehe! and then the rest left and darren, nazreen and me took the skytrain to t2 for fun. and off we went home! i hope everyone had fun, coz i did!! thankiew for making time for me! i know some wanted to go for night study but instead, went out with me. soo sweet. hehe..

the 'coolie'.

dina disturbing her frens who r running.

asnira bullied mao to carry her makcik bag. haha!

darren dazing away..

mao sleeping..

again.. sleeping...

it's their first time. :p

shy huh.. HAHA!

look at their height difference!! and how far asnira chose to stand! LOL!

yaa.. alot of photos here coz we just refuse to move. lol.

someone belongs here. we know whu. lol.

colour colour colour! fun fun!!

me and darren..

us again and the peace sign. hehe.

nazreen's masterpieces.

it's like a coloring competition. haha!

all our 'artwork'. hehe.

asnira and me.

that's mine and dina's. :)

the funny guy. hehe.

and just now was also kinda fun. a birthday spent burning fats. cool or what! haha! but my legs cudnt take it luh plus my back. coz i got somehow injured during the fun touch carnival. it was raining and drizzling but we still continued the walk. from kent ridge park to mount faber. it was super long and like never ending liddat. must say, hortpark is amazing. hehe. realli nice. :) but the walk at vivo suck. coz by the time we reach there, we ate at somewhere some people wanted to eat, and i had to walk with someone i duwanna walk with and someone just annoys me and yaa.. my feet alr got blisters and hurt so much. so im just basically dragging myself around. but i wanna thank nana and her hubby for making my day and making an effort to spend time with me. really appreciate it. bt im sorry if i look like one rotten potato at the end of the day. and oh, someone puked on the way back. ohkay la. i feel sorry for her. but again, she just make me feel pissed somehow. and i forgo the idea of gg to mamayat's to watch fireworks and also to have pizza treat. too tired alr. and her house too ulu for me to go alone. haha. ya laa.. i bubbled laaaa... HAHA.

in short, i had 3 days of great fun. :)

(more photos to be uploaded.) :)